I'm currently writing this as a 28 year old who lives in his parents basement. I've lost everything that I once had the drive to do. I dropped out of school a few years ago because of mental issues. I was able to find jobs, but they only lasted a few months each. I now fear that I won't be able to find something I can do for a career. I've been told I have bipolar disorder, major anxiety issues, OCD, and even PTSD.
I was finally getting things back in order. I started attending school through a programming boot-camp, but it turned out to be nothing like how i had expected. I now owe nearly 25k over the next few years. I was never able to finish the schooling as I had a psychosis event and ended up in the hospital. I haven't been able to pick myself up since. Now i'm at home, I dread doing absolutely anything, I don't eat, the thought of socializing with anyone fills me with absolute dread, and I have no path in life. I feel like an absolute loser.
One of the hardest things for me to get over is all of this money I now owe due to medical bills, that school, and credit cards (I had a manic episode that lasted a few weeks. I thought I could buy stuff on ebay then sell it back at a higher price... welp that obviously didn't work.) Iv'e tried getting medicaid, but was rejected, and can't get unemployment because i quit my last job to go to the programming school (I had a little saved up but it's long gone now.) I've wanted to visit a therapist, and my doctor says I severely need to see a psychiatrist, but can't afford it.
Every day fills me with dread, and quite honestly I don't know what to do.
I'm lost, frustrated, angry, and sad.
This is just a rant that I needed to get off my chest. If you happen to read this, thanks for taking the time.