I'm ok at this moment. Trigger warning ⚠️

Right now, I'm ok but the truth is, the past 2 days, I wasn't ok. I was suicidal and done with all the anxiety and depression.

I sat on the floor in my bathroom with my head in my hands, crying, and just about did it. My cat saved me. She poked her head in the door and meowed. 😻

I felt as if I'd had it. Enough of the damn struggle. It's like, dragging a heavy suitcase around. It got too heavy. I just wanted it all to stop. I'm missing so much due to this damn agoraphobia and depression. I have family in town and I'm missing out.

Then I decided instead, it's time to do the hard work. The exposure therapy, via the hierarchy. It's time to live life again. The old me is there. I just need to fight to get her back.

I didn't tell anyone until after the thoughts plagued me. I told my wife. She's glad I'm alive which feels good. But, yesterday, I laid in bed all day which is counter productive. This fight is going to be the hardest thing I'll ever do. But, I know I can.

Anyway, my message is, stay here- life is better with you here.

I know I can work through anything I'm going through. I've gotta fight- hard and be resilient. I can get help and accept the help, accept the love and support and not be ashamed anymore.

Putting my gloves on, it's fighting time! 💪

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[Hidden]

Hugs - you are clear thinking and capable of good. Just dream abit more and yes use the people around you to get better. But you definitely have to try for yourself , self discovery of the real you should help - you need more for yourself

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Thank you, hugs

[Hidden]

Hi Im sorry you got to that point but so glad your still here we're here for you hey I'll even post again just for you you said my posts helped ease things even if just for a reprieve it all helps I'll do my best to help you pm anytime sending 💖🌷

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much Hidden ! You're so sweet. Yes, your posts help 🙂

[Dolphin14]

I'm so glad you are here.

Getting better and living with mental health issues is a tough job. It takes so much work to get to a point of balance and work to maintain it

I'm glad you have support systems and you have us also

You are a wonderful addition to our community. Keep working Swilly. I have faith in your strength.

Fight Hard young lady

❤️🐬

[Hidden in reply to Dolphin14]

Thank you so much! I do love this community. It's super helpful. 🙂

[Dolphin14 in reply to Hidden]

Herman thinks you are super sweet

[Hidden in reply to Dolphin14]

Ahhhh! I love Herman! ❤️

[Dolphin14 in reply to Hidden]

❤️❤️

[Hidden]

Thank you Hidden ! I appreciate that.

[Hidden]

I will do that 💛💛💛💛

[AnxiousSilver]

"Anyway, my message is, stay here- life is better with you here. "

This community and the regulars here, are on of the biggest therapy tools that I have left in my life.

[AnxiousSilver]

"Anyway, my message is, stay here- life is better with you here. "

And we are glad that you are here too.

[Hidden in reply to AnxiousSilver]

Thank you, so much AnxiousSilver 💛💛💛💛

[bonkers65]

Go Get Em !!!

[Hidden in reply to bonkers65]

Thank you bonkers65 !!