So tired

[Radel]

I’ve had depression for about three years now, I tried tackling the “self help” method but that turned south really fast, long story short I feel horrible because I can’t do anything, I feel horrible because I absolutely hate myself and I feel like I’m wasting my parent’s money on my university tuition which I don’t deserve to attend, and I just feel empty and confused and anxious every single day and I’m just... so so tired.

[Hidden]

What about making an appointment to see a therapist? You may want to consider seeing a doctor also.

[Radel in reply to Hidden]

It’s difficult because so far only my mom knows about this and my Dad’s in the dark. I tried seeing a counselor at my university’s wellbeing center for cognitive positive therapy but it had the opposite effect on me. I did go to a therapist twice and she put me on meds after session one which kind of scared me??? Is it supposed to be that fast? I don’t know and I’m scared to bring it up with my mom or talk about it because I feel that’s all I’m doing these days just making her worry and it’s... but yeah I’ll try visiting the therapist again. But um... what’s the difference between a therapist a doctor? Like what kind of doctor are we talking about? Thanks for listening and for the advice it means a lot.

[m_ary]

wow. those thoughts and feelings totally suck. plus it is hard to argue with thoughts and feelings. well, you are pretty brave because you told your truth. i hope you find something in you to celebrate. like maybe your openess and braveness? you deserve a wonderful affirming thought and certianly a more joyous feeling. in the meantime...thank you for telling one of your truths. we are all warriors . take care of you please fellow warrior.

[Radel in reply to m_ary]

Wow i smiled at this comment and got a little bit teary to be honest. Thank you for listening and taking the time to reply it means a lot

[Hidden]

In the states, a therapist does talk therapy. A doctor (MD) can prescribe medications. A psychiatrist is a doctor who specializes in mental health disorders. Being a parent, I would want my child to tell me if they were struggling with anything. I'm sure your mom wants to know what is going on with you. Please tell her. And just so you know, you are not alone. I too struggle daily with anxiety and depression. My anxiety was so bad today, it inspired me to sign up for this website.

[Dubba61]

Sorry you feel so bad. My Daughter is at Uni and i certainly don't think it's a waste of money. I'm sure your parents don't either. Maybe the Therapy you had wasn't the right sort for you. There should be a Councillor you could talk to at your University. Wishing you well.