Im sad beyond words and deeply hurt for you. I don't pretend to know or claim I know exactly what you're going through. Life is unfair and it was never fair to begin with. No one gets out Alive either, so I hope that this at least eases your mind. We're all wethering a storm and we're all in this together.
Life can be cruel and it can make even the strongest of men/women cry. You aren't weak, crazy, stupid, attention seeking, or a coward for feeling this way. You simply are sane enough to realize how broken and damaged you are, and the world around us. So I hope by validating this to anyone who's going through any of this that yes, it's real. We all matter and you will only really know this meaning when suffering comes knocking on your door.
My heart goes out to those who are standing on the edge of the cliff. I understand you completely and I know how terrifying it is too. To be so low to a point that you're willing to leave everything, and everyone for the sake of peace is very saddening. I hope that everytime you attempt you fail because if you did succeed our hearts would mourn to no end. Stand up each time, dust yourself off, and continue to fight the fight.
When you are weary I pray God sends someone to hold you and guide you in the meantime. Your pain is my pain so don't fight alone and reach out to those who will listen. Take time to appreciate the smallest of things when your mind is a bit more clear. Seek help and ask because some do care. For those who have no one to call on, talk to, play with, or cry to I pray to God that he does something swiftly. Take care and hope for better days. Peace to all.
greeting card just for you.
Suicide - TRIGGER - signs 
