What if I want to give up?

[DedeLawrence]

What if I told you i was ready to give up? Yeah Ik I’m young and still have more life to live but for 20 years my life has been straight hell that no 20 year old should have to experience. Everyone deserves to have parents who love and support them. Everyone deserves to live a childhood carefree, without having to worry if someone loves them or cares enough to feed them, put a shelter over their heads, support them. No kid should ever have to experience that. Getting adopted just for a freaking check. Why? Why use a child you claim to care and love? Last but definitely not least, the fact I’m mixed. I didn’t ask for this but God put me here. Not to be judged by my skin color but by the character that I portray onto others. The hell ive been through is way too much and it kills me slowly more and more each breathe I take. I’m just ready to say screw it and give up bc God I can’t take it anymore

[Hidden]

Don’t give up. You have a bright future ahead. I’m sorry I can’t give much advice as i’m having a panic attack currently but just want to tell you that you are loved 💕 I’ll keep you in my prayers.

[DedeLawrence in reply to Hidden]

Thank you

[Hidden in reply to DedeLawrence]

you’re welcome. people care about you don’t forget that x

[Starrlight]

❤️

[Hidden]

It is never easy to fight those feelings. The fight is real and its not all in our heads. Our body keeps the score of everything we face or endure. Trauma is real and the pain is penetrating no matter the kind of pain you're in. Thinking positive does not always work, if it did there wouldn't be a billion people facing death daily. Not the kind that takes the final breath but the kind that steals your breath every moment of every day. The kind that makes living a painful trial and death the reward. Its when life is a trial not a trail to to walk. When each and every step is a type of minefield and you never know which step will trigger another explosion of emotions or despair.

I know what its like to be born into hell and then spend your life fighting through it. I am sad you are another soul who is battling this darkness too. There is so much good in this world, so many loving families, loving friends, caring and very giving people. Then there is the flip side, the side we have had to live. I get it. I know your hurting. Thats clear. no words can erase that. But I hope you can believe there is a plethora of people facing the trial life can be. Its a fight but i still believe its a battle worth facing and worth finding the other side of. I hope that you will find some help in my words or at least that you know your not alone, not in the battle. There is an army of us

[DedeLawrence in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much

[Hidden in reply to DedeLawrence]

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