Help

[Geckoflower]

When I was little my mother and father would abuse me and my younger brother. They put blame on me for everything and I became really anxious about everything. I can't even ask for a sugar in a bar or call my doctor on my own.

My father passed away 3 years ago and I'm really sad about it still. Me and my mother don't have the best relationship. I'm still the one to blame and I hate myself again. Everything got better when I met my boyfriend and we are still together but I'm keep messing up and I'm scared to lose him even though we are really close.

I just need someone to talk, please.

[Spooky99]

I’m sorry about your Father! You sound a little like me, maybe a little co dependent? I rely on my husband for mostly everything. He spoils me. If you are in a relationship where you have to walk on eggshells and not be yourself... it’s not worth it. If someone loves you, they accept your flaws. Maybe your overthinking and worrying too much. We all do that!! They say most of the things we worry about don’t happen. Just be yourself! Maybe a good book or therapy!!! ❤️

[Purplesomething]

I get that. I have became so anxious all the time being stuck home. I feel like I mess up all the time. Like I'm not good enough for this good relationship I have. But i am and just because you mess up doesn't mean everyone will leave you. I have loved in fear since I was young. I'm just getting to deal with abuse from my childhood..never realized it was. Or how much it is killing me inside to live with it.