Who can I trust

Having a mental illness is a constant battle between wanting to open up so badly it hurts and talk about everything going on in your head to get anyone who understand. But also being so scared to open up in case they judge, abandon you. Also convince yourself that no one will understand so what is the point. Oh the daily struggle.

[Ruthjs89]

Try and stay strong. I understand your struggle. Especially the judge. Because people treat you like if your crazy but your not.

[Hidden in reply to Ruthjs89]

Yeah people are very judgemental like I hear just snap out of it or just cheer up. I'm like if it was that simple. People are very bad sometimes.

[ScarlettOwl]

I hear you, I am scared too about opening up. Whenever something goes wrong or I feel someone is mad at me I always leave before I am left. It is a daily struggle but stay strong, you can do it. I agree people can be very unhelpful and they do not understand. I have also learned you cannot make them understand. I am glad you are turning to people who do understand.

[Hidden in reply to ScarlettOwl]

I always feel like no one likes me. I've been described as very black / white. Like I go off people really quickly so I do. I always before they leave me. Always cut myself off before they let you down. They eventually everyone does.

[ScarlettOwl in reply to Hidden]

I do too, it's been very hard for me to trust people when they have proven me right. It's hard to let go of how people have hurt you or let you down. I am struggling with this as well.

[Hidden in reply to ScarlettOwl]

I am sorry to hear you have bern treated so badly and bern let down. Must have bern so awful. Its very hard I have been let down my full life. Then the people I thought I could rely on the most stabbed me in the back & front. This is why I have no friends and now no family. Just me in my lonely existance.

[ScarlettOwl in reply to Hidden]

I am so sorry to hear this, this must have been awful for you too. I am still learning to heal myself and forgive myself. I try to remind myself daily that these things were not my fault. I have a very small friend group and I don't speak to half of my family. I try to hangout with people but I don't feel connected to them or what we are doing. If you ever need someone to talk to or just listen I am here

[Hidden in reply to ScarlettOwl]

Thank you same for you. I've never fitted in anywhere so I've just drifted along on my own steam basically. They don't understand. I feel like its all my fault.

[LilyAnnepuppy]

I try to be true to myself. If I need to tell someone I have a mental illness I will. Usually it’s someone who can benefit from my experience strength and hope. And, no, the people who can’t identify are not at fault. They just don’t know what they don’t know. They don’t have to understand. I do.

And my peeps who, even though they may not “get it”, they respect that I have a disease they don’t understand. Looking for understanding and acceptance from people who are incapable of giving it is a fruitless exercise on my part and I set myself up for rejection.

That’s one of the reasons this site is so important. We understand each other.