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I did it!!!

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I sat through the emotions of powerlessness that victim mentality gave me. I got up and tried everyday even through depression. I chose not to end my life. I knocked on doors that said no! I finally changed my attitude and took full responsibility for how I feel. I have now completed the TEFL modules and did it with goals everyday. Today, I got offered a position at a Private School in Beijing where my apartment is a 10 minute walk from the school. I feel so proud of myself. I understand that challenges boost our self-esteem and when you're on the right path and take that first step, the doors to your destiny fly open. I feel amazing. I feel light and I'm standing tall. I'm building confidence and I'm never giving up on my dreams because I now know that I can do it! Never give up! Fight for your happiness! Fight for your right to be here! You deserve only significance because YOU are important! ๐Ÿ’š๐Ÿ’š๐Ÿ’š

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Well done!!! ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ

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Magicdreamer in reply to courageovercomfort

Thank you. ๐Ÿ’š

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courageovercomfort in reply to Magicdreamer

Sitting through the uncomfortable feelings and leaning in is important for me. And to avoid reaching for things that make it worse (for me : sugar, decaf coffee, self deprecation).

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Magicdreamer in reply to courageovercomfort

Thank you... That helps me. Xxxx

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Magicdreamer in reply to courageovercomfort

I was in a state of getting ahead of myself as I've just found out that there is a fine line between being proud of yourself and falling into arrogance. My inner voice said not to have a cigarette or chocolate. I did and i've just sat with self deprecation. I heard the thoughts for both emotions. Your message was synchronising. Perfect timing. Thank you. Xx

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Starrlight

You sound great! I hope to get a boost in joy and confidence and that freedom also. Happy for you. P.s. any tips?

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Magicdreamer in reply to Starrlight

Thank you, Angel. Meditate, Meditate and then meditate some more! Lol! Also, be consistent in your self work, decide what you want to do and then set goals and stick to them. They will change as you go along. Be true to your feelings and to you. ๐Ÿ’š

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Starrlight in reply to Magicdreamer

I donโ€™t know what I want to do. I would love to set goals I guess for my exercise I can do that. Iโ€™m mostly busy with my kids and our home. I might start a cbd class in fall. I do want to meditate more often I loooove deep breathing too. Well congrats I bet it will be great for you!!!

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Magicdreamer in reply to Starrlight

Write a list of all the things you:d like to do and then hit one at a time. I'm a natural born dancer so I'm teaching myself ballet, doing yoga and then I'm gonna take up dancing in China. There are soooooooo many things I want to do and I'm gonna do them all in this life. AND I'm gonna just grow that list. Xxx

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Starrlight in reply to Magicdreamer

Thatโ€™s awesome. Yes, do them! When Iโ€™m happy I want to pursue my interests and talents but now Iโ€™m in a ditch of nothingness. Iโ€™ll just keep trying and be on the look out for opportunity and vision.

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Magicdreamer in reply to Starrlight

No, you create your own reality. Your in the perfect place to start. There's no telling like the now. Keep going and practice being present, taking one day at a time. Eventually with perseverance and goals you will be looking back at the mountains (in your mind) that you overcame. I cannot explain to you how it feels but you deserve to feel it! Nothing comes to you, you need to go get it! It's a journey not and the journey is important. There's no end. I'm already setting my next challenge. Fear is my friend. Make friends with fear. Xxx

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Starrlight in reply to Magicdreamer

I hear ya. I am working on being in present and getting stronger in the ways I choose to accomplish.

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Magicdreamer in reply to Starrlight

You will get there. We all will with hard work and dedication. There are many challenges in life so for me, this is just the beginning but at least I'm on my path. ๐Ÿ˜

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Starrlight in reply to Magicdreamer

Whenever I think Iโ€™m getting closer to happiness I push my limits and expect so much of myself so then I get down and unmotivated... I think I need to focus on a few things and not stress myself out about things I wish I was doing that itโ€™s not time for yet. When I think of my main purpose I am happily fulfilling it so Iโ€™ll stick with that yeah. Cheers ๐Ÿฅ‚ to our paths!

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Magicdreamer in reply to Starrlight

The key is accepting where you are. I'm no different to you as I do the very same. Accepting that you feel crappy in certain days is acknowledging how you feel saying it's ok to feel the way you feel. I'm no pro as I'm still learning as well. We have this tendency to want to fix how we feel rather than just accept it. Without the steps of today, there would be no tomorrow. Xxx

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Starrlight in reply to Magicdreamer

xxxxxxx

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Magicdreamer in reply to Starrlight

Magic words to use..... I CAN do it!!!! Another one I learnt from Oprah Winfrey.... Everything is always working out for me. Make this your mantra. You've got this!! Xxxxxxxxxxx

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Magicdreamer in reply to Starrlight

Oh and three more, very important things that will help tremendously..... Gratitude! It's the antidote to victim mentality which we all fall into and prayer.... I pray for things like a grateful heart and more self awareness and I ask the Universe for a LOT of help. It really works like a bomb....lastly, when all else fails, BELIEVE! Xxx

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All_alone in reply to Magicdreamer

Congratulations on the new job and your great outlook on the future. I really loved reading your post. I truly hope things change for me soon. I live and feel my reality every day. I have worked myself to exhaustion. I have looked at my situation from every angle. I've had others look at it as well. The first step is to get rid of a property. That is my reality and until that happens I'm am just here. Hopefully it will go before I do because I just don't know how much I have left in me. I am happy your in a great place and keep moving forward!!

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Magicdreamer in reply to All_alone

Thank you for the kind words. Maybe a part of you doesn't want to sell the property... If that's the case then it sounds like you have internal conflict. You feeling fatigue? Maybe you should find out by asking yourself a few questions. I hope you find the answer so that you can get back into the flow. I believe in you. I believe it will all work out for you. There's a reason for everything, you just gotta go find the real answer. Xx

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All_alone in reply to Magicdreamer

No... that property NEEDS to go. Should have never been purchased to begin with. Thank you for believing in me. It will work out sometime, hoping soon.

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Magicdreamer in reply to All_alone

All the best. I know it will.

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Agora1 in reply to Magicdreamer

Magicdreamer, the world is at your feet for the taking.

You found the "key" to living and not just existing.

I'm proud of you. Believing what you can do, will make it happen. :) xx

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Magicdreamer in reply to Agora1

Wow! I'm blown away by the amazing comments I'm reading. Thank you so, so much. Xxx

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Agora1 in reply to Magicdreamer

Magic, it's truly a great site that you are on.

We all care so much. :) xx

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mrmonk

Congratulations! My wife taught ESL/EFL for nine years in South Korea and loved it. Best of luck to you!

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Magicdreamer in reply to mrmonk

Thank you for the inspiration. I'm so looking forward to a new start and this seems so colourful. ๐Ÿ’š

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NeuronerdDoaty

Youโ€™re a warrior. โš”๏ธ๐Ÿ€๐Ÿ’›

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Magicdreamer in reply to NeuronerdDoaty

That is the BIGGEST compliment I have ever received in my entire life! I embrace that with love. Thank you! ๐Ÿ’žโค๏ธ๐Ÿ’ŽโœŒ๏ธ

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