Feeling strange and down

[Danzdanz123]

I keep thinking about my childhood and what horrible and out of the ordinary things I use to do, it’s like I forgot about it all and now memories keep flooding back I’d say I wasn’t a horrible child but I was quite mischievous and hyper but I remember sometimes doing some out of the ordinary things that actually make me feel sick when I think about them and my head keeps telling me how can I live an ordinary life when I have done those things feel like I don’t deserve anything at all. Feeling poop

[Hidden]

You deserve so much happiness and love! I’m sorry you’re feeling down, you’re not the only one ❤️

[Danzdanz123 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you it’s nice to hear that I’m always beating myself up all the time my Brain always finds a way to kill my any good about myself at all !! Never forget that you deserve happiness and love too 💛

[Hidden in reply to Danzdanz123]

I know the feeling. Just try and keep yourself busy

[Hidden in reply to Danzdanz123]

Me too!!!

[Lazy_dog_lover]

I am sorry these memories are flooding back. It must be hard to deal with. The good thing is that they are in the past. You moved through that. You desserve the best, now, with no regrets. You are worth it. If you need to process them, talk to a therapist abot the best way to do it. Don't perseverate on them. There is no going back. Move forward. We all have baggage (I hate that term) and sometimes we just have to leave it at the airport and move on.

[Danzdanz123 in reply to Lazy_dog_lover]

Sometimes I try to tell myself I was a child and children do weird things because they are learning in life I think what gets me is when I’ve seen those thriller documentaries or heard about what people do in childhood means they are going to be this person or that person when they are older my brain is like a sponge and it soaks up all the badness I have a very sensitive brain!! Yeah you are very right we have to move forward in order to live our life’s! Thank you 😊

[Lazy_dog_lover in reply to Danzdanz123]

I get it. I am not one to believe in predetermined fate. If you are not having the urge to repeat the behaviors, then I would not worry about it. If you are perseverating on the what-ifs, pick a positive image, a safe place, or a fun activity and then when you think about the bad, switch. Take three deep breaths, close your eyes, picture the good image, count to 30.