Hate this feeling

[Dakota11]

I hate this feeling. I feel like im losing my mind sometimes. I want this depression and anxiety to lift and I want to live life again. Im so over waking up and dreading have to get through another day with these feelings.

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I know the feeling all too well. You will find happiness again trust me! Sorry you’re feeling this way though. I know it sucks.

[HekatHushla]

I understand this feeling. My anxiety is so high recently that it actually feels like I'm having a heart attack sometimes. Every time I think to myself "am I finally having a heart attack? Is it finally over?" I wake up each morning thinking "jesus, this shit again?"

It has to get better. What would make you happy?

[Dakota11 in reply to HekatHushla]

I just want this scared and dark feeling to go away. I want to want to do things again and enjoy the stuff I use to enjoy doing. I am afraid to be social too so I never go anywhere or hang out with my friends. I want to have my own life and make money. Its been so long that I just feel hopeless and that this is my life and I just have to get use to it...

[HekatHushla in reply to Dakota11]

I get it, 100%.

I did not want to tell my friends because I didnt want them to worry. I also have it ingrained in me that expressing my needs and being honest about my negative feelings is rude. I'm polite and courteous to a fault.

I was just released from a mental care facility, and I ended up deciding to tell my friends where I had been and why, even though it felt like I was being a burden and inconsiderate. My friends were happy that I shared with them and each of them has stepped up to help in any way they can. While the work can only be done by me, I felt a huge relief in telling them.

Tell your people. Be brutally honest with the people who love you and understand you. Dont just tell them you're depressed and anxious. Tell them everything. Or pick just one person if you arent comfortable telling everyone. Youd be surprised at the relief you can get just from sharing.

Spend time with them, too. Even if you dont feel up to it, make yourself. Do something with them you love, even when you feel like you can't.

I know this feels insurmountable. I completely get it, I feel the same way. Every day is a struggle and I want to curl into a ball and fall asleep forever. If we dont implement some kind of change, nothing will get better. And change is hard. Do baby steps.

[enigmaticide]

YouTube search Matchbox20 Long Day; it's one of my favorite songs and know that I've felt similar on many occasion.