I hate my health anxiety

[Kevin160]

Was at a friends house , he was throwing a smal bouncy ball he had just found in his room , he accidentally slammed the ball straight to the back of my head , it wasnt that painful and its a pretty small ball

But my anxiety started , it wasnt terrible i still had a fun day and tried to not think about something without seeing actual symptoms , its been 7 hours and nothing happened , felt kinda tired in between , but then felt refreshed when we started playing boardgames, now im afraid to sleep worrying that something might be wrong , i just hate this about myself, i can have 30 clues saying im fine and be 99.99999% sure im fine but still have that lingering thought that im a rare case that something bad will happen , im so scared all the time , i dont want to sleep and im sleepy its 2am and i just fixed my sleep schedule i feel so pissed at myself

[Agora1]

Hi Kevin160, by now, I'm hoping you had a good night's sleep and are ready

to start a new day. It didn't sound like getting hit with the small bouncy ball

did any damage to your head. The problem came with anxiety trying to tell

you differently. Good Morning my friend Time to rise and shine xx

[Kevin160 in reply to Agora1]

Trust me im aware of that , but the problem is that i cant convince myself sometimes that im ok , and the anxiety cause symptoms such as dizziness and fatigue which makes me even more anxious

[Agora1 in reply to Kevin160]

Kevin, I know you are aware of that. There is nothing any of us can say except to

reinforce the fact that you are okay. Place your anger on anxiety. It lies to you each

and every time. It allows the fears and the what ifs to surface until you don't even

trust your own thoughts. xx

[Sunnidayz1]

It's the fear of the fear. It's nerves. That happened to me today too.

[JEG325 in reply to Sunnidayz1]

You should have said something to me, S. I could have helped. You have to learn that thoughts are not a real object like a tree or a bus. They only have physical manifestations if you give them that power. The best thing to do is ignore irrational thoughts and replace them with something constructive, creative or necessary that needs done. Quite often you will forget what upset you while doing something else that is at least moderately involving.

[Sunnidayz1 in reply to JEG325]

No, it wasnt a big deal. I was nervous and I realized that I was fearing getting feared. It happens. It was uncomfortable but I knew in the end Id be ok. Thank u for the shout out though John. No need to worry about me. I probably wouldnt reach out to anyone through the site anyway bc being in that moment would probably have left me even more nervous if I didnt get a response back asap.

However, I do think about my support here sometimes. It helps to know everyone here understands me and Im a part of this great community w good people like u John!

Thank u!

XxSunni

[JEG325 in reply to Sunnidayz1]

S, I will never stop worrying about you as in never, ever. You are a life long friend and even if you stop talking to me, I will think of you and continue to keep you in my prayers. That's what your real friends will do for you. Love and hugs, my awesome friend!

[Sunnidayz1 in reply to JEG325]

Awe. You are sweet my friend.

I wont stop talking to you. You were one of the 1st friends I've met on this site. And with the support and love from this site I have healed so much.

Thank u!

XxSunni

[JEG325 in reply to Sunnidayz1]

Starrlight and kenster1 welcomed me to this awesome site of hope for all who need it. I am only paying it forward in their name. (And in God's name, as well as my former counselor Moriah's name) You are a very good person and that struck a positive chord with me nearly immediately. I don't forget my friends and I don't abandon those genuinely good people that I run across. Since you're aces in both categories you will remain near the top of my list of those I care about!

[Sunnidayz1 in reply to JEG325]

That means so much thank u John! It's important that I come across as a genuine person bc that is who I am. My friends appreciate that. Thank you for seeing that in me too. Ive worked very hard at accepting myself and loving myself. You are an ace too!!!

XxxSunni

[JEG325 in reply to Sunnidayz1]

Thx. This ace is super enjoying watching week 1 of the NFL. I love football! My sweetie patiently puts up with me spending a whole day watching 3 games + post game shows. I really, really love her! A whole lot more than the football. All is well in my world right now and I will spread as much love and happiness as I can. I think the man upstairs will approve! (lol)

[Sunnidayz1 in reply to JEG325]

She has a lot of patience..haha. You gotta do what you enjoy. I hope you had a great day watching the games. Say hi to Sue for me please!

[JEG325 in reply to Sunnidayz1]

I did and I will!

[Kat63 in reply to JEG325]

“Thoughts are not a real object like a tree or a bus” - that helps.

Does it help to replace the scary or painful with positive affirmations? I’ve been reading a lot by Louise L. Hay lately. She says that the thoughts you think all day long can actually become a self-fulfilling prophecy - that is, if you worry all the time about something bad happening, it is more likely to turn out that way.

I also know that in CBT, in cognitive therapy, it is taught that your thoughts affect your emotions.

What do you think about this?

[JEG325 in reply to Kat63]

It's true that if you continue to think negatively it can cause you to feel just as bad as if something bad had happened. My point is that there are 2 ways to get around this: Either you can acknowledge rhe fact that you're having baseless thoughts and go on from there or you can tell yourself that these type of thoughts can't harm you because they are a figment of your mind and not a real physical object or occurrence. YOU have all the power and control, not some fake contrivance of your mind!

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I do get it. Try to say kind things and offer yourself forgiveness say it out loud. Mentally picture a fix it store where you put your worry in a box and drop it off at the fix it shop. That’s their job they see it all of the time and when you have your worries your job is to drop it off there before bed each night. Hope you slept well.

[Kat63]

This is a few days ago, so I hope you’re feeling better now. ((hugs))

[Kevin160 in reply to Kat63]

Thank you so much kat, im feeling ok , except for severe vertigo that im guessing isnt related to anything but a possible ear infection or fluid build ip which is something my ear and nose and throat doctor said i had

[JEG325 in reply to Kevin160]

And that is a real thing. You can fix that and go on. We have plenty of real problems in life without letting our minds go off half cocked and create 'fake' scenarios that haven't occurred and most likely will never occure. Why feel worse than you have to? Over time you can retrain your mind to quit being such a killjoy and stop wasting so much of your life on figments of your imaginations! Step 1: Do something you like or something that brings you satisfaction when these type thoughts occur. Replace the negativity with positives and 'drown out' your bad feeling. Eventually you will become stronger and more in control and the episodes of irrational thoughts will reduce or even end!