Morbid thoughts

[Sandieandie]

I have a severe thought process about death and dying. I have reached middle age and I focus on this and the C word continually and I can no longer live like this. I need my brain to stop doing this to me.

[Celtic27]

Hi sandie please try and focus on your wellbeing today and try not to look up Google as it will make you more paranoid I spent years doing that and I had to get used to not doing that and seek help through your doctor he may even do some blood tests in the hope the result may calm your worry! Please take care All the best david

[Sandieandie in reply to Celtic27]

Hi there, I am okay I have just had a health scare but I totally list the plot. I just feel so very lonely and never thought that I would feel like this. I do not believe that my medication works anymore. I merely exist I do not live.

[Celtic27 in reply to Sandieandie]

Hi sandie try asking your doctor to review you medication that may do the trick and make you feel so much better sometimes the meds your are put on stop working so it's worth trying something else! Wish you all the best david

[Sandieandie in reply to Celtic27]

I have done that numerous times. Our mental health services here in NZ are pretty bad. I do not trust my GP to be able to do this they do not have the experience in mental health. Thank you David.

[hypercat54 in reply to Sandieandie]

See a counsellor?

[Sprinkle1 in reply to hypercat54]

I agree with all David has suggested, a therapist would be a good option. And it may be time to change your med's or up the dose. I am 78 and suffer with severe clinical depression and anxiety since childhood, just came out of a 3 year trip thru hell, now I am on a med that works and I have a wonderful therapist, do not give up on yourself, read some good books in the therapy section, Dr. Clare Weeks writes some great books, another one I read that helped me a LOT was by Dr. Scott Peck, "The Road Less Traveled" it was in the top 10 best seller list for 7 years. Amazon has it new/used. a worth while investment. Try some meditation to clear your mind, go for walks if you can out in the fresh air and sun, get some Vit. D.

I am all alone, no family here, my friends are dying, I keep busy, I am growing a veg/herb and flower garden on my deck. I have two beautiful cats and keep busy all day. If I can do it, so can you, love and respect yourself. I did volunteer work at the local library, but that ended when the virus hit. I miss and the lady's I worked with. I do go out to get my grocery's I wear my mask and gloves, try to keep the distance, a lot of people don't, but I like to get out once in a while. I send you strength, courage, peace, love n hugs.....

[hypercat54 in reply to Sprinkle1]

I think you meant your reply for the poster not me.

[Sandieandie in reply to hypercat54]

I am in therapy and it does not seem to be helping. My meds are not working and this needs to be addressed by a psychiatrist not a GP as they are not skilled enough in mental health.

[Sankissjuice in reply to Sandieandie]

I also feel like I kinda exist, but definitely not alive, not living. Something is dead inside.

But I remember recovering many times. We will get past this awful phase. Have faith!