Do I really care about anyone?

[Lindsey14]

Lately I've been extremely scared that i don't care about any of my my family and friends....while deep down I don't want to believe it, i can't help having the the thought I don't care and am extremely fake....I feel like this makes me psychotic or something

[Jenrolil]

I have the same feelings towards my family. I can’t feel any positive emotions towards them. When I try I feel dread and a horrible numbness like I don’t care about anyone. I also have depersonalisation so I find it hard to feel like anything about me is real and genuine.

[Lindsey14 in reply to Jenrolil]

I have that too, i feel ya, thank you for replying❤

[NeuronerdDoaty]

It’s clinical depression. I could go into chemicals and stuff but it’s complicated and I’m tired.

Clinical Depression puts a buffer zone around feelings. I enjoyed mine for many years. It made me think I didn’t have anxiety. I’d have fought on a horse with a lance to prove I didn’t have anxiety and of course I was wrong. Depression just muffled it. The mind doesn’t know which feelings to let through so your love for yourself and family are muffled as well.

Panic attacks are because those chemicals can’t hold that volcano of energy in constantly.

You love. CD makes them feel like energy vampires and like you aren’t responding appropriately. Just be there. That’s all people want. Use your energy wisely and be there. The feeling is inside.

Unless you gave birth to my daughter ......that’s a story for another day for those who haven’t met the sociopath.

My love to all

Doaty💛

[Africschoice in reply to NeuronerdDoaty]

That could be me!!! 😁

[Lindsey14 in reply to NeuronerdDoaty]

Thabk you so very much❤

[Africschoice]

Sometimes I love not giving a shit, that's when I know I'm strong

[NeuronerdDoaty in reply to Africschoice]

I did that for 25 years. Careful, it becomes ptsd.

[Africschoice in reply to NeuronerdDoaty]

Ooooh spooky just done 25 years

[Africschoice in reply to Africschoice]

Think I'm more the Sociopath

[NeuronerdDoaty in reply to Africschoice]

There is nothing wrong with being a sociopath. One fourth of the population can fit this category. The problem comes in if there’s narcissism or callousness.

Do you yawn when someone close to you yawns?

Would you help an elderly person who fell or would you laugh?

Does animal fighting anger you?

Callousness is the personality trait that is scary. Sociopathy does not need to be scary.

[Africschoice in reply to NeuronerdDoaty]

Yes I yawn, depends on how they fell, animal fighting is abhorrent and I don't think I'm scary although I know people who would argue the case

[NeuronerdDoaty in reply to Africschoice]

I don’t think a test would show you to be a sociopath! Lots of people say I’m mean lol! No one scares me. I’ve had daughters. 😁

[Wild_N in reply to Africschoice]

LOL "depends on how they fell"

[NeuronerdDoaty]

You’re a trauma survivor. You have different responses due to actual physical changes in your brain. I have first responder c-ptsd. Walking into our day knowing more suffering is a huge part of what we live literally changes the size of the amygdala. Our ability is hampered by brain changes. Thank you for sharing ChavivLeon.

[Wild_N]

Yes I think. Personal experience and answer is that you've probably cared, loved, protected and maintained peace with your family, friends, neighbors and the community at large. Currently internally you are angry and disappointed at them hence the don't care attitude because when you needed them the most to care, love and protect you they failed to do so...

[Dave_H]

I agree with the other posters in that depression sucks us dry of these feelings. I would ask you if this is coming from the heart or the head. I know in my head I love my family and my friends, yet I seem unable to _feel_ it. It's like there's this distance between me and others that feels like the inability to feel love, compassion, empathy, sympathy, closeness, intimacy and so on. This is extremely painful for me as I have not always felt this way and there is grief in having lost the _feeling_ of connection. I definitly feel a sense of loss about it, but it is part of my depression. I have really bad anhedonia (the inability to experience joy or pleasure or interest in anything). Try not to feel guilty. This is your depression, not your heart or soul. I hope you can find relief, either from medication or therapy. Best wishes.