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I don’t have the energy to live anymore... it’s killing me. Everything. I can’t handle things anymore. I tried every option, advice, and offer have been offered to me. Nothing worked. I’m stuck in the same cycle and i can’t get out. My work is bringing so much stress and i don’t have any other option: either i die from hunger or i die from stress.

I want to end my life to end my misery and suffering. It’s over.

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FreeinSea

It’s not over. You can make it through. I know that it’s painful. I have been there myself. I felt as though I was trying to find a door knob in a pitch black room. You have to keep trying. You have to keep pushing forward. Ultimately, you can find peace for yourself without ending it.

Please don't give up!

It might just be better the next day!

Do you take meds?

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AnIslandOfPeace

Like FreeinSea said, it's not over. There's so much pain in the world but nobody understands​ the magnitude the next person gets. I feel the way you're feeling every now and then and every now and then, I want to fight. You've been here this long, giving up will only mean you lost two way. Find something or someone that interests you, smile when you cry. It's okay fr, it's okay to want to end it all but think my dear, think. Ain't we all in one mess or another? Ain't we all still here? You're not alone, love. We're all here and we all feel you. ❤️

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GiGismiles in reply to AnIslandOfPeace

thank you. you dont know how much this meant to me also

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AnIslandOfPeace in reply to GiGismiles

I'm glad you got the message. Stay safe, love.

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Brooke_L

It’s easy for anyone of us to say “don’t give up”. But when you’re in these moments, where all you want is relief and for the hurt to go away, seems impossible to not want to give to up. That’s all I’ve done my entire life, give up. I quit before anything can get too scary or hard and then I feel like shit about myself because I gave up. So when I was at my end point, I started to think about what I’d be missing out on if I end it all right here and now. That’s the only thing that got me through it and got me up off the ground. I didn’t want to miss out on possibly finding happiness, or someone helping me find my way in life or to have a family. “Possibility” was the only thing that got me through it. Maybe that could help for you. I hope it does.

Don’t end it if you know that you’d possibly be missing out on something great that could happen for you. A year and a half after what I thought was my ending, I found out I was pregnant with my daughter.

I hope you find peace within yourself. ✌🏼❤️

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Warrior50 in reply to Brooke_L

🥰 beautiful story Brooke_L Hope you and your family are all safe and well 💜x

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cynira

Please rethink that, don’t give up on yourself, we all have those moments but we are all still here and we are here for you! Stay safe!

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GiGismiles

I am with you

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GiGismiles

STOP !!!

Imagine the world as it will be in your ideal future, when everything is simple and painless, regardless of how you feel about the odds. happy thoughts makes our brains connect with neurons that will spark more happy feelings, thus deminishing the anxiety and helping us to think more clearly. Its so hard I know. I'm trying. I'm tired. I'm scared. I'm wanting to be done. but I'm here, maybe for you .......,,,,,,,,

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Thealchemist99 in reply to GiGismiles

I tried to think positively in every possible way. I’m looking for a new job but nothing is working, i applied for many scholarships to continue my education but i can’t afford any, my life is meaningless now. I can’t even hope because reaching dreams is unaffordable. Nothing is satisfying and nothing happy left in the world.

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GiGismiles in reply to Thealchemist99

where are you. can you get into nature? forging food is awesome in oregon, but its a much cleaner state than most. rafting down the river on a borrowed boat PRICELESS. laying under the trees, making cloud shapes, counting the stars. you can pm me anytime.

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Thealchemist99 in reply to GiGismiles

Unfortunately i’m not from the states 😞 i’m from Lebanon

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GiGismiles in reply to Thealchemist99

I'm sending my love to you with a big cyber hug. I'm so sorry for your struggles, somehow thru all the poo of life, I wish you blessings, happiness, love, food, laughter, good fortune. If only in our minds, we can envision it enough to fall asleep dreaming of it. sometimes I think of all the things that would make me comfortable and fall asleep easier. I wish we were all one people taking care of each other. Corruption rules the world it seems.

I’m sorry you feel this way. Someone once told me that the toughest times in your life are the ones that define you. Let this be the time in your life that defines you. Work through the challenges, though they may not be easy, try every resource and option you can. There might be more out there than you know. Your life is so much more valuable than you may think. You may not see it now but you will be okay; you will make it through this patch. I believe in you

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grace414b

Hey there,

I’m so very sorry you’re feeling this way. I have battled the same depression and feelings since I was 13. No one ever really knows what to say or how to respond. There seems to be no hope of anything ever getting better. The few I thought cared faded into the background when I needed them most. I felt like I had no purpose, yet I was driving myself crazy trying to do everything that needed to be done. Even after marriage and having children, those feelings kept creeping back in on me. I had every reason to be happy and grateful, yet I wasn’t.

The only thing that finally helped me begin to crawl out of that dark hole was finding my faith. That wasn’t easy either, but as I began to read the Scriptures, I realized that my worth is not found in what other people think of me or even what I think of myself. I did have a purpose and was born into this world for a reason. It took me a long time to figure out what that purpose was, but now I have, and I feel so much better about the future.

I still have my down days (and weeks). I’m actually having one of those weeks right now. But I look back on all the other hellish pits I’ve climbed out of and remind myself that this won’t last forever. I try to surround myself with the things that bring me joy like my dogs, worship music, good books, and cooking in the meantime.

I promise this won’t last forever. And I promise that you also have a purpose here even if you don’t see it yet. You are worthy and important, and you are loved. I don’t know if you’re spiritual or not, but I would be happy to share some verses that help me when I’m feeling depressed. Just let me know. I’m always around if you need to talk.

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Warrior50 in reply to grace414b

Hi grace414b, firstly.... what an amazing reply, so insightful 😊 and secondly..... I could’ve done with a friend like you recently, I don’t really have any “close” friends, like you I found out who my real friends were as they faded away 😢xx

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Poodie

Hi Thealchemist.

I am so sorry you feel so hopeless. I hope you will not give up. I am sure many of us have felt this way at times so we are here for you. You are not alone in your struggles. Keep posting please.

❤️

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