How to move on and be strong

[shelleyhollingsworth]

I am new here

I struggling on such a huge level with my depression. My whole life seems like its on a standstill but at the same time I am feeling so alone.

I have severe depression and to escape I make up a world that I can go to, but then the world seems so much better i get angry i can't be there in real life . My depression went up when I was betrayed by my friends during a party on a fourth of July party in 2013 they drugged my beer so a guy could get lucky and he did.

I feel so dumb that it happened I had no idea though is what I am told by my therapist but that doesn't help. All my friends disappeared that day i couldn't handle it I had to go to a mental class down in Denton to help me with out bursts.

Then as I was getting back on my feet a coworker trapped me in my car and had his way as well so I had the same instance happen twice I got transferred and not even two months later I got fired I had a whole melt down I am still getting over the melt down. I am so alone it hurts so bad I need to find any way out I am afraid of being alone forever.

How does one get over losing all of their friends, being raped twice, losing a job? I feel lost and my depression is getting severe I wish there was an escape I have no where to escape. How does one escape the pain and emptiness? I have no idea where to turn.

[AnIslandOfPeace]

Hi, I'm really sorry. You're not alone though. May I send you a DM?

[shelleyhollingsworth in reply to AnIslandOfPeace]

Certainly I would love that

[Onthego33]

Pls keep talking about how you are feeling - both about the long term depression and about the traumatic experiences. Those feelings need to be processed and the sense of being treated so horribly again and again expressed and understood. Find a good therapist if possible. You will move on eventually but do not pressure yourself. Be kind to yourself. Jay x