You can’t run away from it, until you face all the mistakes you have made, you can not begin to change.
Most people choose not to change because, it is easier for people to turn around and then go back, not change.
We are always waiting for our lives to change; but, what are we waiting for? All we have is now, do not run from it..... CHANGE!
You can begin to change, you just need to change while facing the things that come up.
So I have stepped up to the plate and decided change as much as possible to be honest as possible, in fact as be the least dishonest person when talking with myself.
Furthermore, I believe in trying to be the best part of or version of myself as possible and change is the worst parts of my traits, this will enable be to me able to identify and, change for the better. Weather or not the professionals have to say. But I have to be realistic so I will sort that out as far as it will enable me, going forward.
Good for you. It sounds like you are heading down the right road that will lead you to where you need to be. But, what do I know. Im 67 and still trying to figure it out, lol.I know the things I need to change. It is more physical changes such as getting out of the house, moving, finding something meaningful. I could write the book on it I think but taking that first step, then second step and so on somehow is an obstacle I need to push thru everyday. Thanks for your post, it is making me think💜
To be honest, I felt the same. Getting out of the house used to be my worst feat, agoraphobia being the worst, I was in the 1 bedroom, if 3, then the house and now hey, I am alone but... I have to try the hardest as possible. Why? Because I deserve to have this, I deserve to be the best person and I need to be the person I was. Change is hard, I have to experience the best version of life as possible. So I am going to be that, I know and I need to be better but great. I am good but why because I can actually decide to be my own fate, I want to be better then ever and remember, it's better to regret something that you have done than to have regrets of things you have not done... Eh?
Very true. My daughterinlaw is a good cheerleader for me. She knows me well and she is winning her battle with depression/ anxiety. She recently ran her first marathon. So I dont really have any acceptable excuses not to take my dog and go for a walk.
Am I stupid, push that, stream, this, email this, iphone this, ATM's closed, cards rule, why can't life be simple? CUT BACK TECHNOLOGY!
Am I overreacting 
I got rejection but i am learning and moving forward
I am not ok.
I can't do anything right