If I knew then what I am right now

[AlLeYkAt86-]

I’m always going to be tearing away from myself the parts I can’t heal, or won’t heal. Scar tissue doesn’t age or tan as though somewhere in our heart we know that the closest we’ll come to immortality is through pain. When I’m practicing with the training blades I’m trying to cut away the parts of myself that are hard to live with and remember. The mirror is a cruel joke, just a constant reminder that no one is waiting for me, I’m nobody’s future, not even for myself.

[Hidden]

Reflections can be deceiving.

[AlLeYkAt86- in reply to Hidden]

Think so? I don’t see anybody inside that glass. And I am a night walker ironically wnough

[Hidden in reply to AlLeYkAt86-]

I do think so!

You don't get scared?

[AlLeYkAt86- in reply to Hidden]

No, even with the danger of sounding cocky or invincible, if people accost need they soon recognize their error. I’m 5’7 188 lbs but I’ve got plenty of rage and lonely despair for everyone.

[AlLeYkAt86- in reply to AlLeYkAt86-]

Fireflies, bats, cats, summer wind in the dark, trees whispering and swaying in the breeze. And nobody out, nobody to talk to or search for...exactly like daytime.