Constant need for love

I have always been a bit sad right from when I was little.... I always yearn for anyone's care ..now an just 21years old and am back to the old me this time worse, I just can't get to be happy...i spend most nights crying it all started around last year October when my boyfriend of 4yrs left me I have been so sad I have a problem of letting others determine my happiness... I have actually gotten over him but I just can't get the angry and sadness out.. I have literally no1 to talk too as the days passed by I feel even worse so empty ....i keep feeling like my future is so pointless the only thing thats keeping me is my family....i also got myself in debts and copuled with this virus everything is just weighing me down, I spend all day thinking and crying, I really have no one who understands how this emptiness feels ....i really can't stand being alone I need someone to survive on

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Sorry you’re feeling this way ☹️ but please know you have so much to look forward too ahead.

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Thank you so much

[Entela15]

Oh hunny I know how you feel. I can't seem to find happiness no matter what. I have it hard letting go of boyfriends even when I know they're not right for me. Actually every time I've had a break up I've sunk into bad depression. Now when I think of past boyfriends I truly don't understand what I saw in them and they weren't worth my tears.

I also yearn for someone's love. I hate that I can't be happy on my own. I wish I could afford a shrink so I could get to the bottom of this. Hope you feel better soon xx

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I'm really glad you understand me.... Someday we would love our self twice as much..... Thanks a lot

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I'm really glad you understand me.... Someday we would love our self twice as much..... Thanks a lot

[Blakelyanne]

I completely understand I just went through that recently I broke up with my boyfriend of 11 years but it was bc I was lost and thought I needed to find myself and I ruined everything even though he was always mean to be I wanted him for some reason and he didn’t want me and I saw him with a girl and he moved on recently and it hurt me so bad and I don’t know why and all I want is to be loved my family never loved me and I yearn for that and I didn’t want to be here either I thought it would just be easier for the pain to go away bc I just want to be happy and I didn’t know how

[Hidden in reply to Blakelyanne]

I guess we all have to find the love in our self first.... Thanks for your comment

[Blakelyanne in reply to Hidden]

But can we really? That’s how I think I feel like I will never love myself

[Hidden in reply to Blakelyanne]

I feel the same way.. But have to keep trying, that's all we can do

[shewolf_]

wow this app has shown me that there are people out there going through very similar times like me. My heart feels sad for you because My boyfriend of 4 years left me too . in march . I’m not as sad probably because I take antidepressants, otherwise I’d be a mess. I still cry and miss him . It sucks not having him but I’m miserable with him and miserable without him so . Sometimes I feel empty too , lately I’ve tried to stay closely connected with my friends and I read books and try to love myself again I hope you the best

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Thanks.. I'll try the book reading out

[red_door]

I can completely relate to the heartache. Something that has helped me through the healing process is the book, What a Time to Be Alone: The Slumflower's Guide to Why You Are Already Enough by Chidera Eggerue.

And also her TEDtalk, which is free on Youtube. Search "What a Time to Be Alone TEDtalk" or youtube.com/watch?v=babcNWX...(Not working as expected?).

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Thanks... I will look at it