Today my husband pushed me for the 100 time.

[Jfb007]

Is so sad been in this situation and not been able to get out. He has PTSD because of war and anger management. He always abuses me mentally and sometimes physically... like pushing me hard, hitting me with things, or getting close to my face. It’s super scary and I’m so tired. He doesn’t understand that this us hurting me so bad. He is always telling me that I’m trash, that I don’t have money, that my daughter will be miserable alone with me, that I’m an easy women, gold digger... and other things. I don’t deserve this. I can’t even study calmly or concentrate. I hate my life in so many ways. I hate been in this situation. I hate feeling depress and anxious all the time. I wish I can just go away(not dying by the way). Miss my old life. Miss been happy all the time, I really miss been myself.

[Flower_2501]

Hi,

I’ve never been in this situation myself but I’m sending my thoughts as this does sound really difficult and I’m so sorry to hear you are going through this.

Do you have any close family and friends who know about this?

[Jfb007 in reply to Flower_2501]

Not all the things, but parcial.

[Flower_2501 in reply to Jfb007]

Maybe it’s time you are more honest and express how you’re feeling. This is your life too and your happiness and self worth is priceless. You shouldn’t ever be feeling this way.

[Jfb007 in reply to Flower_2501]

I will open up soon... they know the condition that my husband has. They know that he will mentally pit me down but not physically... I can’t tell a lot of people that. But, soon I will have too.

[Agora1]

Jfb007, no you don't deserve this abuse.. I am so sorry you are experiencing

this fear every day. Is your husband under psychiatric care? You need help but

it must start with him getting the help he needs for his PTSD. I care xx

[Jfb007 in reply to Agora1]

Since the pandemic it’s not the same, meaning the care is not the same.

[Agora1 in reply to Jfb007]

I understand. I'm glad you are here for us to at least allow you a safe

place to vent. xx

[Jfb007 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you for listening xoxo

[Anij3443]

I took a moment to check out your profile. I see you live in Puerto Rico. What resources do you have available to you? On the mainland we have battered women's shelters and safe houses. I've not the time at this second to do a search online and its really dependent upon where you live but I highly recommend that you look into that. Another option might be to connect with a local church. You might be surprised by how many are able to help you out with a place to stay, food, and maybe even job if that's needed. Praying for your safety.

[Jfb007 in reply to Anij3443]

Hello. Yes, I have search and I have phone numbers and location... not sure about church here; thanks for the suggestion. I have spoken with he VA Psychologist and we are working with him since he has PTSD. To be honest is really hard to be a Veterans wife that actually has had contact in war. I really appreciate your comment and amen for that. Xoxoxo

[BurtieClassic]

It may truly be best to leave until a medical and therapeutic solution is available for him. Any physical harm is not to be tolerated or excused. He is giving you his PTSD. Take back yourself before he totally breaks you down. I will pray for you now.

[Anij3443]

How are you doing?

[Jfb007 in reply to Anij3443]

I’m doing fine, thank you. I talked to his VA psychologist and we made a plan for him. Thanks for reaching out & truly appreciate it. Xoxoxo ☺️

[Agora1 in reply to Jfb007]

My heart is happy for you. Take care of yourself... xx

[Jfb007 in reply to Agora1]

Thanks Agora1 xoxoxo

[Iammesues]

How are you doing? Worried and sad for you.

[Hidden]

You need to get you and your daughter out for both of y'all's safety. While I respect the shit outta our veterans, he's damaged from the hell he's been through, and he's a danger to you and your daughter. Until he gets help and has his issues under control he is dangerous. And no one should have to go through being abused. A real man would never hurt any woman but especially not the one he claims to love. If you are in Fl I will help anyway I can. Stay safe, irie vibrations to you. 🖤

[Jfb007 in reply to Hidden]

Hello RKJ33. I live in Puerto Rico at the time; I appreciate the offer of helping me if I was close by. My husband is been treated at the VA center and I have spoken to his Psychologists. But, yes is affecting me and my daughter. I’m trying to cope with his conditions for 4 years, but since the pandemic started he has gotten worse.

[Hidden in reply to Jfb007]

That's not fair for you to have to cope, and it sets a horrible example for your daughter. She will think this is how a man is supposed to treat her. If you won't leave at least protect yourself and your daughter. Stay safe. I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to.

[Jfb007 in reply to Hidden]

Yes you are right on that point; And thank you so much.

[Hidden in reply to Jfb007]

Anytime you need I'm just a message away. One love

[meechie-18]

So happy to hear that things R improving and that your husband is able to get help at your local VA. You need to take care of yourself and feel better about yourself as well. Perhaps there R support groups at the VA for wives of soldiers with PTSD. PTSD is a condition that can be managed but it takes time and the right kind of therapy and program for your

husband Since I read that U live in Puerto Rico, I'm giving U a proper social distant

abrazo.

Tenga cuidado. Estamos aqui por usted.

[Jfb007 in reply to meechie-18]

Yes there’s a website for PTSD Veterans Wife’s. And, abrazos para usted también! Gracias por las palabras.

[Hidden]

Sounds like you are a good mom and loyal to the family.

But, remember you and you daughters safety are priority.

I wish your man can get some help.

You have your hands full with such a hardship.

Be strong. As you are.

It is a very difficult situation. I too, have been abused. It’s not easy leaving. I have no children so, I can only imagine the choices you have to make.

These hurtful things your man is saying, I hope you can not allow it to internalize. Because of course these words are more hurtful then the punches itself.

Prayers go out to you and your family matters.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

That's not a man. A man would never treat a woman like this.

[Jfb007 in reply to Hidden]

You have a great point... hope things could be different.

[Jfb007]

Thank you for you words & amén for that xoxo