I don’t know why; but with the upcoming holidays and people having plans, I always feel so sad/left out. Last year I spent my New Years with someone I thought I’d spend the rest of my life with. This year I probably won’t do anything. Stay home and be with my sick, elderly father. It just makes me feel so pathetic to be crying and upset that other people are going out of town and doing these fun things.
I just feel so alone. Like there’s nothing good in my life and nothing to look forward too 😢