Hey there! I’m 29 with a 14 month old amazing daughter. I have always had anxiety and managed it fairly well. Unfortunately before the birth of my daughter two years prior and I had a miscarriage while on vacation. During the time of the miscarriage as well as during the first trimester and half of the second trimester with my daughter, I suffered from Hyperemesis Gravidarum. I lost 30 pounds and I end my anxiety heightened because I was worried about the health of my baby. Now that she’s older I feel anxiety has gotten worse, if I see anything on the news, on social media, or the newspaper, about something tragic happening to a child or family I instantly see my daughters face in the situation. The last time I had an anxiety attack what’s the last time I had to leave her overnight with her dad, whom is a great father. I just feel no one can take care of her better than me, with all due respect. I come from a family in background of mental, physical, drug, emotional, and alcohol abuse. I would say to an extent this has worked in my favor as I know exactly what not to do as a parent. Anxiety has begun to take a toll on my confidence and my career, as well as my sex life. There’s more but I am slowly trying to unload it all as this is something I have not done before.
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I'm sorry about your anxiety problems. And post-partum, I believe, can make it worse. My daughter was about 3 months old when I went to the ER for hip pain. I had her with me. I openly told the nurses at the front desk that I hadn't wanted a baby when I first found out I was pregnant. I thought about adoption and miscarrying as a solution (naturally caused issues but I sort of wished for this). But abortion was out of the question. They took this to mean I would harm my daughter or myself so I was forced into a 3 day hold at their "stress center."
I hated it. My mom or maybe it was my sister took care of my kid so no child protective services were called. I played it smart and was able to convince the therapists in 2 days that I was perfectly fine. That the nurses misunderstood what I had said. And I managed to get released a day early.
But I was terribly upset about that fiasco and depressed and anxiety got worse day by day. I was also sleep-deprived because my baby didn't sleep through the night until she was 10 months old. I fought post-partum and slowly pushed through. I learned to "mostly" control my anxiety. The depression stayed but it was an abusive childhood that caused most of that. My daughter is now 26 and I still have depression/anxiety. I have been on a good medication combination that is helping and HU has helped me a ton! Sharing my problems with those who understand the conditions I have has given me more hope. The responses make me feel "normal" and cheer me on to keep fighting. I hope you continue to post here and let us share inspiration with you. Prayers, hugs, light and love to you!
Hi honey, you are so strong and I’m thankful for you staying your experience. Funny fact: I actually found out I was pregnant on Father’s Day, lol. I know that anxiety is different for everyone, and that no ones day to day is the same. But I’m glad & inspired that HU has helped you feel better, it’s relieving. I wish you continuous improvement with your anxiety/depression & I’m happy to be someone you reach out to. You got this! There are so many you do and don’t know rooting for you. Prayers, hugs, love && light to you too!
I am proud of you for beginning to unpack all the pain you are going through or have been through. It took me years to get to that point, years wasted. I too had a very rough past and that left me completely hopeless for so long. I can tell you that it is been over 10 years now that I have been healed of depression. Don’t give up. Keep talking, keep fighting and seek help. God has a way of taking the broken and making beautiful things out of it. I am praying for you. -Rachel
Thank you so much Rachel, do my best a day at a time is all I can do. I always try to remind myself that stress is a lack of faith. I’m proud of you & your success! I’m sure that even if small, there were still lessons learned throughout those years. I appreciate you.
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