Mental break

[aftucker]

I feel like I’m having a nervous breakdown. The stress and anxiety has become too much for me to handle. I’m seriously considering committing myself to a mental institution for help. I can’t keep my head above water any longer. I feel so alone. I have to do what’s right for my kids but my body and mind can’t keep up with the pressure to support us. I don’t want to work my job any longer. I feel backed into a corner with no way out. My brain is starting to crack. My thoughts are jumbled.

[Starrlight]

(((((((Hug)))))) you know yourself best and it does sound like you are needing the care and a break. I’m so sorry you are suffering but I am sure you will get better. Take one thing at a time. I’m here for you.

[Silverlining101]

I understand fully. This is me daily frustrated because I can pull myself together so worried that I will just pass out at any given moment. I feel your pain so deep. I have explained to my kids what I am going through and I feel better because no one ever really explained until now that my mother suffered with mental illness. She is now an alcoholic and has been since I can remember. That keeps me grounded when i fins myself drinking alittle too much to drown out life. I have been trying to keep busy and trying to figure out where I lost myself along the way. I pray things get better because its hurts physically and mentally. Stay strong you can do it. Eat and enjoy every thing you do. Take nothing for granted. Try natural remedies and pray and keep praying. No matter how hard it gets. I had a break down about 6 months ago i thought i was dying. It will get better keep busy and remind yourself of who you are. If you find yourself losing control get on here or just cry and vent. If it doesnt work dont be afraid to seek medical help sometimes we are just so overwhelmed and tired and cant realize it. Sending you blessings.

[aftucker]

Thank you for the kind words. It seems so strange to jump in so deep with my woes in my first post. But I felt so desperate to hear reassuring voices. My own voice was being very cruel. I’m doing better now. Had a good talk with the husband which helped bring a rational, kinder voice to the conversation.

But I appreciate everyone who posted. You all were very kind. And it meant a lot to me that strangers cared enough to reach out.

Sorry I posted the same post twice. I wasn’t fast enough at getting one deleted before they both had comments on them. So I’m responding to both.

Thank you, again, my lovely new friends.

[Silverlining101 in reply to aftucker]

Superwoman, I was the same way when I found this site. So dont apologize for how you feel thats most of our problems. Worrying about everyone else all the time. I bet when you do get a free second you still sit and worry. I know it all to well. Glad to hear you are feeling better! Im here if you need to talk. Take care love.

[lovetodance2018]

Sorry you are struggling. Sounds like you need to give yourself a break. As moms and women we often miss the self-care for ourselves because we are always caring for others and doing other things. What are the things you enjoy doing and go do them. For me it is taking walks, reading a book, taking a bath. You need 'you' time.

Also have you struggled with depression in the past? Do you see a counselor? Having someone professional who can help you with some coping skills is also very helpful.

Over the years I have had to learn to let go of many things. Give myself breaks and know nothing is life or death if I don't get it done that minute.

I pray you will take time for yourself, give yourself a break, and focus on the things you enjoy. So glad you reached out and know you are not alone. We are here for you, we understand and we care.

Hugs and God Bless.

[Starrlight]

How are you today? ❤️

[aftucker in reply to Starrlight]

Thanks for checking in. Did you see my reply from this morning? I'm better.

I'll be talking with my therapist in about 30 minutes which I am happy about, but also nervous. Being honest, open, and authentic is so scary and difficult for me.

[Starrlight]

Oh I see it thats great! Best to you, let us know how your therapy session went?

[lovetodance2018]

How did it go with your therapist? Are you feeling better? I continue to be praying for you. Hugs.

[aftucker]

It went well. The talk with my husband gave me a little more hope for the future. We are downsizing, which will decrease our bills, which will allow me to work less. Hopefully that will turn into not working at all, eventually. Or at least a different career for me. We have been konmari-ing our house and gotten a LOT done in the last few days. Feeling like we are moving towards an answer makes me feel less desperate.