Self esteem

[Cutiey75]

I have low self esteem all my life with relationship. I have to build it up. I’ve been on depression medicine most of my life just finding the right one

[PastelPink20]

Hi! It’s wonderful that you’re working to build up your self esteem for yourself and in relationships with other people. A rough and tough fight. A delicate endeavor. I guess I’m just saying things now.

It can be difficult to know what you’re worth and what to believe about yourself when depression is so consuming. I hope you find what you’re searching for to help. The side effects can be hard to deal with. It took awhile to find one for me.

It’s weird because with self esteem, it’s easy to be angry at myself for just not giving myself love. For not believing in myself. For every doubt and fear and shadow. That I’m choosing to hate myself is such a painful way to look at it... instead of thinking I haven’t been taught or programmed to build myself up, to walk with confidence, to value and recognize how I feel and think, to want to be heard. I don’t know if it’s that way with you. I hope you’re being kind to yourself about learning how to be kind, to defend yourself, to reaffirm how you deserve to be treated - your past, now, and future self.

It’s an amazing transformation once you’re there... I guess it’s a lifetime of figuring out how you want to feel about yourself, rather than what you’ve been told or what you’re afraid of. It can be looking the mirror and smiling instead of immediately turning away or feeling disgusted. It can be choosing to eat something to take care of your body. It can be making a boundary with someone who helps break you down and holding that line. It can be a bunch of different little big things that we can give ourselves - that we have the power to think and do.

I think regaining or making that path doesn’t have to detracted because of a bad day or a bad thought or whatever. It’s a journey in the making. It’s one for the ages and it’s all yours. It’s commendable.

[Sprinkle1]

I hope you are on the right med now. I have just come out of a 3 year battle with clinical depression severe anxiety. I was finally put on Cymbalta 30 mg, I felt a movement, days became brighter. I asked my Dr. if we could up the dose to 50 mg she agreed, that really helped A LOT. Then I was referred to a wonderful therapist who is so helpful, have you ever tried therapy? If not I would suggest you search one out who specializes in depression. Therapy could help you with low self esteem, I used to be that way, but after therapy where I learnt to like myself, love myself, respect and accept myself. My life took on a much more positive note. I wish you well, talk to us we will help if we can, sending love, strength and big hugs.......