Struggling a bit

[sochel]

I rarely post on here, but I read all of your posts every morning and you all make me feel so less lonely in my private hell, I am so grateful to you all, you are such special people. I am writing this because I am struggling. I am so much luckier than some of you because I have such a lovely family and really good long term friends, so I feel guilty for struggling. I suffered terrible abuse as a child, and horrendously in a marriage to my children's father ( I am now married to a lovely man). I brought up my 3 daughters on my own and they are doing really well, but I am not. I struggle every day with my brain telling me I don't need to live in such a cruel world, but I do want to live. Am struggling with this Corona virus mass panic, am not afraid of contracting it, I was a nurse and am quite sensible about it, but I am so afraid of the fact that people are clearing supermarket shelves with no care for anyone else, this reinforces to me that the world is scary, and I am as alone as I was when I was a small child when all the evidence of abuse was there but nobody did anything (it was the 60's and 70's), I just wondered if anyone else is feeling this way, I hope not and want you all to be ok, though I know you are not, but I get to know you all every morning before I start my day x

[Hidden]

Sochel, so sorry to hear you are suffering from things that happened. Try to get some help from a Psychiatrist or Psychologist so you can talk these things through. Major life events can really be hard to get over. I also use Buddhist techniques to be in the moment and appreciate everything that is good. I have a chronic disease and use some Buddhist exercises to separate my mind from the suffering in my body, and is usually works.

The Virus is here. The emergency rooms are all overwhelmed. I had a COVID test yesterday, but have to wait until the end of next week for the result.

[sochel in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much for your reply, I really appreciate it. I hope your test results are ok. Please know whatever they are I would like to support you too.

[Tbine in reply to Hidden]

Hello PacificCLL, i was wondering about the Buddhist exercises to separate the mind from the suffering. I'm very interested to learn more about this. I've done some meditation and mindfulness. But honestly I'm still struggling. daily with all of life's usual BS and now this panic with the coronavirus. It can all be overwhelming to some extent. I find that believing in a "higher power" helps

[Hidden in reply to Tbine]

Read How to Be Sick by Toni Bernhard. It is on Amazon & Kindle. She explains the exercises and it’s a great book for anyone who is suffering.

[Tbine in reply to Hidden]

Thank You. I'll look into it for sure.

[Sillysausage234]

Enjoyed reading this thanks for posting

[Binkynoo]

Hi couldn’t be more true to that feeling myself seems we have come so far but yet far worse in the way the world makes us feel. I was put into care with my sister really tough look back still wonder id it did happen to us really seems like another life I am going to write a book I must on a positive . Yet coming through all that and meeting a man who loves me , having a little boy premature with cleft I feel life was still testing me , just got over that then thyroid issue came my way strong medication lost myself big learning curve health etc ,and now just starting to try and enjoy work life balance and now world is crazy I feel like thyroid coming back and dare not go docs iv got to stay well for my son who happens to be autistic too. Just feel so edgy I’m still wide awake too . So gonna go get hot drink lemsip

To soothe me a bit xx

[Hidden]

It does seem selfish that people are panic buying and not thinking of others. I understand where you're coming from x