Sometimes I’m like - why can’t I just live life without people wanting things from me. You want me to be a good friend a good sister a good daughter etc. sometimes i just don’t even want to open my mouth to talk. I’m very ok alone. I’ve isolated myself from everyone. I don’t want any pressure to be anything. This is a little ramble-y. Just feeling overwhelmed with wanting to be there for people but for my own sanity and anxiety, can’t. It’s awkward for me, it makes me anxious and feel guilty, and I can’t take all the emotions. Sorry. But was good to get that ramble out even if it didn’t make sense.