Lost

[Infinite-space]

I have been lost inside my own head wanting to scream but my mouth is sewed shut I stare at my phone wondering who I can tell that will actually understand why I have so much hate for my self...see yesterday I relapsed it was fun in the moment and I thought I was in a good state of mind but turns out I wasn't as soon as the buzz started to fade away it all came rushing back into my head as if I was upside down and finally sat up right I feel like I'm a terrible person for what I did that I let my self down and gave into the person I no longer wanted to be but now I'm here not able to sleep with hardly anything to say I just feel numb and I feel like it's never going to go away...

[Tellmeaboutit]

are you alluding to a drug or alcohol re-lapse?

it does go away, the moment you resolve to try again, get back on the “wagon,” and just hang on.

youve done it before, you can do it again. call your sponsor or go to a meeting or just pick yourself up and start over, however it works for you. but dont beat yourselfe up about it that wont help, just persevere.

if ive mis-read the situation, then obviously nvm, but tell us more specifically what is going on. it realy does help to “talk” about it here

[Kkimm]

So sorry to hear this.

If I remember rightly you used to write some brilliant poetry. Try to get back to that, it will help in your struggle. Whether or not that was you, do not feel bad about a relapse. You have done it once and can do it again.

My thoughts and best wishes are with you.

Kim