Not posted in a while , but needed a place to air my feelings and I trust the people who use this site .. some know my story, some don’t .. suffered with anxiety for probably 20 odd years but wasn’t diagnosed until I had postnatal depression 16 years ago!
Anyway.. I called time on my 23 year old marriage several months ago .. couldn’t stand the way I was treated... a switch just flipped... may BH when he drunkenly stood over our daughter and did what he’d done to me for years .. poked at her head .. said she was stupid! He then went awol for several hours ..I then found out he was in massive debt ! ... fast forward 7 months and we’ve sold the family home 😢 Which tears me apart.. I’ve got a rental .. working two jobs to support myself and my two teens .. when they come and stay !! Here lies the problem.. they have completely forgotten and forgiven him ..and he has managed to buy a house and they’ve all moved in today.. I feel like I’ve lost my whole life , family, home , animals because I decided I didn’t want to live on egg shells anymore..I miss my family and home so much it hurts and consequently my mood is low and my anxiety high ...I cry lots when I shut my door .. I’ve lost ... he won ..
any advice would be so welcome on how I cope .. thank you for reading.. Marie