finding it hard to accept these feelings of unreality

[Blake96]

depersonalization/derealization is by far the worst symptom of anxiety ive been dealing with for over a year. there is no shutting it off, i try to do exposures and drive and get myself out but its just so unbearable to be outside in the real world when everything is so weird and off and my vision wont let me see things clearly as i once did. glasses dont help apparently my eye sight is 20/20 but things feel so unreal and trying to accept these feelings when im out is too unbearable. idk who else goes through this and what they do to cope or overcome it but im aware im sensitized and this will take time but right now it so hard. i went on a drive about 15 minutes or so and as usual my eye sight just feels off but i did the drive fine, little to no anxiety but the DP/DR remains. my anxiety does trigger if i drive farther but im just exhausted mentally when going on and its extremely depressing not having a way out of this feeling.

[benbt]

Hi Blake96, have you tried meditation? I have found it has really helped me with anxiety

[Blake96 in reply to benbt]

ive been hearing alot of people talk about mediation. i should try it right now and get on a regimen of doing so. i need something, i just dont want to lose myself i feel i may go crazy. thoughts are irrational as well

[Hidden in reply to Blake96]

Meditation does help. Try breathe deeply, change the thoughts for a while and pray. Close your eyes.

[Jamie2018]

Yes it sucks big time

Scariest thing ive ever been through

I feel for you

[Mike7777]

You gotta be consistent with meditation and not overthinking things. Its like practicing for a sport. You have to change your mindset. I still get brief flashes of derealization and it sucks. But i am in therapy and recognize my problems and let them pass by. You drove fine correct? I know its mentally exhausting but you will be fine. I have learned to live with it. Although i still do take a benzo every now and then, i dont take antidepressants nor can i reccomend them from my personal experience. Keep exposing yourself to uncomfortable situations. I know that sounds weird but that will help and is what helped me. Just know i still have it mildly and a cure wont come overnight.

[Blake96 in reply to Mike7777]

right, yes i drove fine oddly enough. i will continue my exposure daily

[Mike7777 in reply to Blake96]

Stay positive.

[Depresseddoglover]

Insight Timer is a good free meditation app. Also Hay House Meditations is a free podcast. Best of luck - don't give up. You are a super hero for continuing to fight through those terrifying feelings!

[Blake96 in reply to Depresseddoglover]

Thank you, it’s extremely difficult to stay positive but I’m trying