I recently hospitalized myself for my anxiety and depression. After a week, I really thought I had a good game plan in place to combat my anxiety and manage each day, especially work as it is my biggest stressor. I have been back to work for two weeks now and am finding it harder not to fall into the same faulty patterns of thinking. I am my own worst critic and beat myself up for everything. It is especially worse if I make even the smallest mistake. I am struggling to not beat myself up, let go of negative thinking and stop worrying about future events. I continue to meditate, exercise as regularly as possible, and try to keep things in perspective, but my anxiety is overwhelming. Acting as some kind of protective shield.
I take medication for depression and anxiety, and go to therapy, but after more than 20 years of suffering I question if I really have the strength to keep up this battle. I keeping telling myself I deserve to feel better, but sometimes all I want to do is give in.
I realize this my sound to many as if a I am feeling sorry for myself considering I do have two beautiful children, a loving wife, and a comfortable lifestyle, but I am hoping some people can relate.
The stress of it all is so debilitating I don't know where to turn. I feel as if I've taxed my friends and family enough that I don't want to burden them anymore. I really could you use some compassionate and understanding support.