Fat

[jjsangel]

I was always a super skinny person growing up. I even thought size 10 was fat. My mom is very verbally abusive and degrading and always makes comments towards my weight and size and what I’m eating. I’ve had 5kids. After the first 2 I lost it all but after the last 3 I haven’t been able to lose any of it and when I try to diet and exercise I get in so much pain from fibro I can’t work out. Even yoga causes pain. I try to walk as much as I can but my youngest is 18 months and he gets sick easily do I can’t take him out to go on walks as much as I’d like. My 3year old is awesome about trying to exercise with me and my 7 year old is very hyper so I can’t keep up with him. I don’t have any friends around me to help me cope and I’m very sure my fiancé likes fat women; every time I tell him I want to lose weight he brings me candy and junk food and wants to go out to eat. I’ve tried not telling him and he gets suspicious because I’m not eating candy or sweets. I have a terrible sweet tooth(I always have). I’m really depressed because I was going to a nutrition specialist but he stopped practicing. I lost 36lbs and was down to 212. Then I had to stop everything he had me on and now I’ve gained it all back I’m back up to almost 240. This is horrible, I’m in size 18/20 pants, I’m really not sure my size, I went to buy pants today and when I got home nothing fit. It’s all too small. My hips are 55” around I’m almost as big around as I am tall. I’m 5’4”. I’m so depressed because I’m always hungry and I can’t lose weight because i always want to eat and I can’t exercise as much as I want to because it’s so painful. I don’t want to be one of those idiots that takes pain meds all the time so I don’t take them. I’d rather deal with pain than be addicted to pain meds. Sorry for the rant. I didn’t mean to waste anyone’s time

[Hidden]

I get it. I am right there too. When I met my husband up until our daughter was six, I was a tiny size two. Now she's 13 and I am about a size 12/14, 200lbs. My husband is younger and has always been a body builder. I don't look like I belong with him any more when people see us. I actually feel bad for him because I make him look bad. My mil is mean to me because of it and it's hurtful but he still loves me. Yesterday a man saw me and said, good lord, and then a few minutes later hung around to strike up a conversation with me and I was upset because I thought it was because I'm fat and he wanted to see up close. I told my husband and he said, It's because he thought you were beautiful. I was convinced no man could ever see me and think I wasn't gross. Maybe he's right. We all come in different sizes and people will still see our beauty and more importantly, our inner beauty. If you want we could be weight loss buddies. I plan on starting on Monday walking every day after work and eventually going to the gym.

[Gretajetta in reply to Hidden]

I think it’s wonderful your husband said your beautiful. He loves you and sounds like a good man.

[YznRz]

It’s no waste of time at all. I think you’re awesome !

[Gretajetta]

My best friend had bariatric surgery and lost 50 pounds in three months. She did get her insurance to pay for it and it helped her lose weight and feel better and get off some medications. Don’t ever let anyone tell you your fat or ugly. See a dr about the surgery. I was with her the whole time and it was an easy surgery. It shrunk her stomach so a small handful of food would fill her up. It doesn’t hurt to check into it. U need to stay healthy for your children and yourself. As far as your mom telling you things like that PLEASE tell her how you feel and how it made you feel. And if she can’t help you or understand you step away from her. You need good timings in your life just cause she is your mom doesn’t mean anything. Family can be our worst enemy. Good luck.

[Sprinkle1]

Sorry you are in this battle with your body. Us women are taught to be attractive and slim?!!!! It is unfair and unrealistic, we have more fat cells in our body's and child birth can play havoc with them. Have you considered Weight Watchers it is one of the best weight loss plans on the market. Do not do fad diets, they do not work. Sorry you have fibro, I have had it and can relate to the pain, goes from head to toe, my Dr. gave me some pain pills, finally it cleared up. I take Gabapentin every day, they help with my aches and pains.

Try to curb your sweet tooth, my brother recommended pitted dates to me, and yes they are lovely and sweet. I also have banana chips, they are sweet too, and I ration them out. I can imagen you have your hands full with 5 children, I hope your husband helps with them so you can get some valuable rest in your day.

Do not compare yourself to other women, that is deadly, and yes some men like cuddly women, many years ago when I lost weight my husband complained!!!

Hang in there sister, we are rooting for you. Sending love, & hugs....Sprinkle 1....

[jjsangel in reply to Sprinkle1]

Thank you so much.