Depression

[Vannessasedillo]

Nights are the worst for me yea I cry here ND there because I'm stressed and frustrated everyday just because the way I'm living I also made bad decisions but idk if its my fault or depression makes me make these bad decisions I just hate being alone and sad 😞

[Agora1]

Hi Vannesssa, they say we learn through our bad decisions. I don't think it's your fault

or depressions. We learn and we grow with life experiences. It's true that we have the

option to choose what we want in life. Sometime, we aren't sure ourselves what we're

looking for. Use this time in being lonely and sad to reverse your negative thinking and

focus on what you can do to bring some joy in your life. YouTube has some great

motivational videos that might give you that boost that you need right now.

You can always come on this site and bounce ideas, frustration and sadness off us.

Reaching out can help you not feel so alone. So many of us feeling the same emotions. xx

[Hidden]

I have made some poor decisions as well, everyone has, but you've grown from it! You must forgive yourself! You are not alone in this! ❤..

[Vannessasedillo in reply to Hidden]

Thankyou 😞🙌💯

[YznRz]

I feel you. I just want someone who’ doesn’t mind being by my side at least to keep me company and not be put down for having a mental issue bc I should “suck it up”

[Vannessasedillo in reply to YznRz]

I feel you not everyone especially the ones we want to be with ND feel love from dosint understand our mental issues they think we can control our emotions like them but truly wer not like them I have depression and axiety it hard 😞

[YznRz in reply to Vannessasedillo]

I feel like I’m seeing another me in you. I wish I could hug you and say “we can do it together.” I hate hearing that we can control it bc if we could we would of kicked it's butt off a long time ago.

[Somehowiwil in reply to YznRz]

Mental illness is SO hard and controlling it? It’s like telling a diabetic to control their insulin levels. No one tells a diabetic that. It’s an imbalance like our brains are imbalanced.

It is so damn frustrating and trying to be kind to ourselves? It’s like trying to be two people. Well we aren’t. I am struggling too, especially this past 6 mos. I know I need to go back to a psychiatrist and try some new meds or something. Argh. I just feel stuck.

Anyway-Best to you, and my heart goes out to you. Hugs to you all.

[Hidden]

As frustrating as it is, part of me is glad they don't understand, because if they did, they have probably either gone through it, are going through it, or know somebody that has. I'll take this all myself if it will keep even one person from feeling what we all have been dealing with. Damn I hope my Nieces and Nephews don't ever feel this relentless pain.

[67anxiousgoat]

You are correct in using the word pain. My Psychiatrist informed me that the same area of the brain that receives physical pain signals is where our chemical imbalance is causing depression and anxiety. Our illness is a form of pain. However trying to describe it to someone who has never experienced it is impossible as their is nothing to compare it to for them to relate to the feelings. In my experience the pain is always there. Some days it is low grade and manageable and some days it is debilitating. I have had it for 16 years and am now 61 years old. I don't know what it would like to not have it at this age. Going for that long without ever feeling "happy" or looking forward to anything has just become a way of life. I don't plan anything with anyone in the future due to I don't know what kind of day I will be having. As deepthinker says I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.

[Hidden]

You're not alone and this forum proves it!

Read some of the other stories of people and see what they're going through and sometimes it makes you feel or minimizes how you're feeling compared to other people.

We all make bad decisions or choices and I think you were trying to do the right thing at the right time have to move forward from that and let it go and do better are yourself and whatever situation you're dealing with.

What you mean by how your living?

Do you have a roof over your head do you have a job do you have your bills paid on time stop was kind of an open-ended statement.

Everyone here is available to support you so reach out and get those feelings out cuz that's half the problem we let things build up in your system we stay silent and that's what makes anxiety depression panic disorders so much worse

Horseaddict57

[pink318]

Hello Vannessa,

We all make mistakes. I have made mistakes as well. Sometimes it’s painful to go through the consequences

but my mistakes helped me to learn lessons and become stronger person. Sometimes I dwell on the pain that makes it too hard for me to move forward. It helps when I forgive myself and decide to focus on the lessons I learned. It’s not easy but it’s the only way that I will feel better.

I’m sorry you are going through a tough time. Please know that you are not alone, we are here for you. I hope by being here in the forum, it will help you to feel less lonely. When I was going through empty nest syndrome, posting in the forum helped me to pass through that season. I hope this forum will be an encouragement to you.

I pray for peace and you will soon feel better. Please keep us posted.