Hi, my name is Tiffany and my mom abused me physically and verbally when I was a kid. When I was 15 she wanted me to sleep with her older male friend because she said I was bad and he could cure me from being bad. I always wanted to commit suicide as a kid. Now that I'm older she still hates me. She made my other siblings stop talking to me. I recently got engaged and she hates me even more. I feel so depressed all I want is a mother like normal people and I never got that in my life. How can I get rid depression?