New year's eve anxiety

Hello! I'm new in this community. I just signed up because more and more I'm realising I'm having a lot of troubles in social situations. Like for this new year's eve.

I was supposed to spend some days in the mountains with a group of friends (20 people or so) but this morning, when we were supposed to leave, I ended up by telling I wasn't gonna join them because I was sick. Which is not totally false. I did feel sick for the most part of last week caused simply by the thought of going there. My mind started rushing through all the things I was supposed to do there, very simple and everyday life things that made me go crazy. Like what shoes should I bring or what are they gonna say about my outfit or how am I supposed to eat breakfast if I wake up earlier than everybody. I know all of this sounds so stupid and I guess that's the main reason I've never spoken about it to anybody. They're such simple things, how can they be such a big deal?

I found myself stuck more and more on these little things and they're having a huge impact on my life. Rationally, I know they are totally meaningless. But in the same time, the other part of my brain sees them as mountains impossible to climb. I feel paralyzed.

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Hi there and welcome to the site..you'll find a bunch here who understand what you're are dealing with...

I try my best when those nasty negative thoughts come in to focus on my positives in life...or take my mind to a happy place...

The what if's can really goof you up...only cross the bridge when you come to it...no amount of anxiety will change the future...we tend to be so hard on ourselves and it's just not worth it...

I wish you all the best..

Sparkles & dump trucks of groovy love, peace, light, joy & hugs Rodjon!

[LiveandLetLive42]

Omg I do the same thing. That's a lot of people to be around when you have social anxiety as it is!! Don't feel bad. Curl up with a good book or a movie and just take it easy. You did nothing wrong. And welcome to the group!!

[Kkimm]

Hi Rodjon

So sorry to hear what you are going through.

Have you thought about having some therapy for it. CBT could help you alot.

Very best wishes.

Kim

[Pooc]

I signed up for a 4:30-7:30 shift at work to try to take up some of my evening. I take too much medicine to drink this year. It’s hard and my anxiety is so extreme I can’t handle crowds, especially drinking crowds. Try to plan a special meal, a good movie or go to a movie. You won’t be hungover tomorrow. And as I see it- F#ck you 2019! I’m ready for a fresh start!