My day

[HJam5880]

I am in the midst of the worst anxiety and depression I have ever had. However, my anxiety meds (that I just started yesterday) are already working or at least my mind thinks they are. Also I don’t have as much stress since I was done with school (for the semester) on Thursday night so that helps. I finally feel hope that everything is going to be ok. I had a good day today. It would have been a great day but my horse passed away today. We had him and his mom, but she passed away a few years ago. He has always been a part of my life. He’s around 30 and I’m 21 and he was born when my grandparents already had his mom, so we have literally had him all of his life and he has literally been there for all of my life. Other than that I’ve had a really good day. I’ve known that his death was coming, so even though it was a shock, I’m not really upset even though I’ll miss him. Not sure if the lack of emotion is from the meds or just knowing that it was coming. Today has been the best day I’ve had in probably at least 3 months possibly more, despite my horse passing.

[LilyAnnepuppy]

I'm glad you had a good day but am sorry for the loss of your horse.

[HJam5880 in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

Thank you!

[Elocin303]

May I ask what meds you were prescribed? I wish mine would work that quickly

[HJam5880 in reply to Elocin303]

I was prescribed Buspirone for my anxiety. My doctor said that it works in the first dose for some people and it could take a week for some people. I have been on it now for three days and I feel better, and the side effects only lasted the first two days. My doctor also put me on sertiline, which is the generic of Zoloft, but it hasn’t started working yet. Just remember that the same thing doesn’t work for everyone.

[Hidden]

Wow a horse I love painting horses with the paint by number thing. I’m so sorry you lost yours must be a terrible pain. Sort of like when someone looses a dog or cat they are close to. But the size of your horse and how you bury your dear friend. I’m so sorry.

I’m sure that your going to be missed and you were a good caregiver. I can only remember petting horses through fences and wishing I had the sort of life I could have one. They are so amazing. I bet you both had nice memories together. When I lost my dog a few years ago I thought I would never stop crying. I wasn’t so strong. I even hitchhiked to Florida prayed and tried to lose myself in turmoil. I’ll pray for you. I take cbd oil when there is no script for zanex it kinda helps a little.

The one thing that helps more is people caring about me. Or even wondering how I feel. Nothing can replace that. Wish I had more of that too, sort of challenging to find.

[HJam5880 in reply to Hidden]

Yes friends support is the best. It’s hard but it would have been a lot harder without my med. I think it also won’t seem real until I go to the barn and he isn’t there. We do have some great memories with him.

[crowningglory19]

Glad to hear you are doing better, and so sorry for your loss of your horse. =( Hang in there, you are doing great! Some things that can help you continue to be without anxiety or depression is taking magnesium malate, it calms the mind body and spirit. Also, ginseng is great to stop the negative thoughts that stick. Hot epsom salt baths are great for both too. Volunteering is a great way to help others which helps you too. Best to you, Happy Holidays!

[HJam5880 in reply to crowningglory19]

Thank you I will try some of these and see if they help!