Prepare for the rollercoaster ride.

[Lindaluu123]

It's 2 am in the morning for me at the current moment .

I sit up yet another night , this is regular for me. I think so much that I can't sleep . I try but my eyelids flutter open without me even noticing . And then there I am again , thinking uncontrollably.

Maybe insomnia .

Maybe just my past that haunts me.

And how I've so effortlessly .

Given up . On everything.

I don't tell people much about me.

But I want to tell everyone anonymously what I don't tell anyone because I'm tierd of living a lie. Living in secret .

So , if you're interested to know these secrets. Hop on this rollercoaster and prepare yourself for one hell of a ride .

I'll write something new .

Every day.

[Hidden]

Medical marijuana, xanax, cough syrup (dextromethorphan), muscle relaxers, that usually works for me.

[ldm847 in reply to Hidden]

That’s quite a cocktail please be careful with it. I suffer from severe insomnia but it is mostly under control with Seroquel.

[quitter333 in reply to Hidden]

Marijuana makes you f**g stupid. I smoked it for years and I regret it dearly.

Also smoking marijuana before sleep is like drinking alcohol - your mind will race even more and you will simply get knocked out, but it will not be very pleasing.

Stop advocating this young people curse of the 21st century, please. MJ is being marketed the EXACT SAME WAY cigarettes were in 50's. - a snake oil cure-it-all wonder drug with a benefit of feeling weird and fun (until you get MJ induced psychosis, depression and memory loss)

[Hidden in reply to quitter333]

While I do appreciate your input and agree with several points mentioned, having reread my statement I cannot see where it can be misconstrued as being an "advocate" for others to follow my methods. How I treat insomnia or simply enjoy a nice, chilled evening, works well for me. I would not advise anyone to try the same formula so I listed no dosages. But I've said nothing new; people have been using these drugs for longer than I've been around. And that's over half a century now. Thank you.

[ldm847]

Looking forward to reading your story. We are here to listen.

[Dolphin14]

It certainly is a rollercoaster ride

We might as well all be together on the same one lol

I don't sleep well either. Up and down all night.

I do use meditation to drown out my brain. It does help.

[Tikirob]

Very lyrical post. Look forward to your posts. Good luck with the insomnia.

[quitter333]

Cool. Tell us. Writing is good therapy.

Also sleep patterns are mostly habit - start by laying down in bed, lights off at 23:00 and get up no matter how sleepy at 7:00 morning.

In about 3 weeks your body will adjust.

And one adjustment completed, the next will follow.

At least don't give up on having proper sleep discipline lol