Sometimes I welcome depression to escape anxiety. But other times the anxiety stays at the same level. Im too tired to fight much I think I will have to slowly swim through this ocean and ride it’s waves. I try to be compassionate towards myself yet it’s easy to feel unworthy atm. I usually think better of others. Why am I hard on myself? It breaks my heart. I have to be the one who loves me. I’m so sad...About my brother killing himself which intrusively attacks from a long time ago. I wish I knew where he was what he is doing. No I guess I’m not in present moment all the time. Also I am sad about my mom being in later stages of Alzheimer’s... but I lost her a while back really...so I’m grieving and trying desperately to connect with her. I am sad and fragile. But in a way I am still very strong. I try to do the right things. I spread peace and love. But I need to go into a deep hole and wait out this storm and I hope to find good shelter from friends while I recover.bless you
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