I ruined the best girl I've ever known.

[Ilosther]

I lost the love of my life because I lied to her and treated her like she meant nothing to me. When truly she means the world to me. I have anxiety and I can't seem to feel ok. I dont know what to do. I've never felt so hurt because of something i caused. I've been terrible for 3 years and I am just realizing how much different I could have been. But it's too late now. What do I do? I'm so lost..

[Hidden]

You need to now move on and learn from experience what you did to this Partner. Hopefully you have learned and will be able to move onto a better place with a new Partner.

It sounds like you were not considerate of others around you. Move on and stop feeling sorry for yourself.

BOB

[PapaDocs]

I agree. Sometimes we make mistakes that even if we regret them and wish we can have a second try, it’s too late. So the best thing is to learn from the experience and be a better person. But how so you do this, just think about it? It will not make you a more compassionate person. I learned a lot from doing volunteer work, sometimes soup kitchens, sometimes signing up with an organization that fixes houses or help at senior living places. It takes just a couple of hours to half a day. Try it and give something back while you are healing.

[Hidden]

Hi Ilosther,

It will be one of the hardest things that you may have to do but letting her go might be the better option. Take what you have learned about yourself and improve upon it so that when you do find that special someone you will truly love and cherish them. I hope everything works out for you. Good luck!

[Hidden]

They say it's never too late. Can't you let her know that you're sorry and have changed?

[Dolphin14]

Words won't do it. If there's a chance only actions will show your change.

We don't know what we had until we lose it. It's a wake up call I guess. Be kind to people. As others have said, learn from your mistakes.