I felt like checking here again , i guess im happy that i didnt feel the need to for 2 whole weeks, this gotta say something right!?
The month of november was bittersweet, i overcame so many fears, and i did so many activities and i dealt with so many setbacks and events
I participated in 2 plays with a crowd of hundreds , i participated in so many social events such as bake sales, charity events, i participated in a local competition , my mom Had to go to the ER after a regular appointment following her cancer recovery which was very scary but thankfully so far so good all is good ..i also got a really bad case of the flu , still feeling sick, got a few health fears since my health anxiety was severe throughout the month, i managed exams and university applications to apply ..and i somehow felt calmer at times I CANT BEGIN TO EXPRESS HOW SURPRISED AND PROUD I WAS OF MYSELF ,celebrated friends birthdays as well, many parties and social events with crowds, music, lights , i used to always get derealization due to my anxiety, but im happy that im controlling everything better, i still get bad attacks of anxiety but i feel hopefull , so that good 
The cold made my anxiety bad since it raises bp , and reminds me of last years panic attacks becayse the cold was always a trigger for me , so im dealing with that and so far im doing well
GOD KNOWS IM TRYING 
