Stupid girl

[BrownEyesBlue]

I’m really missing him today.......

it’s like my heart is being ripped out and my soul just aches.

I try to be reasonable. I say aloud the things he’s done and how he’s made me feel yet the emotions take over.

I hate myself for being like this. Hate the depression and anxiety that make it so much worse. I just wanted it all to work and sadly there’s a part of me that hopes and is holding on to maybe, just maybe if he does what he needs to do, that we can be together again. When? I dunno.

For right now I need to be okay with being alone and that’s the hardest part.

[Hidden]

Your post really brings back my feelings when my relationship ended. It really did feel like the end of the world. Everything is so early and fresh right now. I know it feels really hard but I think all you can do is take each day as it comes. It is natural to think of the good times but even if you went back to him he would not make you happy.

[SuZQ154]

You feelings of sadness should be expected. In all relationships, there are good and bad times, and good and bad characteristics about each person. It is natural and HEALTHY to grieve the loss of the good times you had with him and his good characteristics. There is no harm in praying for him to change and for your relationship to be restored. It may happen, yet for now, it is said to be healthiest... be "OK" by yourself.

What do you feel you might like to try, that you might not ever tried before, which might help you to get out of your depression? A few years ago, I started stretching! It has helped me mood, flexibility, and my negative thinking. Hope you can find your "new" walk toward joy today!! Please keep posting.

[Tealribbon]

I don't know about you, but with my divorce I was in love with a Dream...the guy I wanted him to be. Not the real guy who cheated, lied, stole and manipulated....

It's not easy

[BrownEyesBlue in reply to Tealribbon]

Definitely not. The more I’m away from him the more I see I put up with more than I should have

[Tealribbon in reply to BrownEyesBlue]

Sometimes it's hard to know when we have "forgiven" or overlooked enough. Until we are looking back and like the saying goes....hindsight is 20/20.

[kenster1]

hi maybe you are more emotional because your thinking of happier times in the relationship rather than the harder times.

[BrownEyesBlue in reply to kenster1]

Yes. I believe so. Some days are harder than most. Certain things trigger emotions and I become a wreck. I’m the kind of person who’s emotions are right at the surface and who wears her heart on her sleeve so it doesn’t take much to make me emotional.

Did I say emotional too much? Lol

[kenster1 in reply to BrownEyesBlue]

not at all its your honesty of how your feeling I to can get over emotional.write down the reasons you left and if you start to feel emotional then look at them and hopefully they will make you stronger.