ANXIETY I’ve IBSD and travel anxiety and have a hospital appointment Monday

[Runrabbit50]

I have had anxiety lead IBS D for 25 years kicked off as I was pregnant after 8 years fertility treatment back in 1994-95 the year before I miscarried after years infertility treatment, when pregnant the second time my Nan died and my then father in law both with in 2 weeks of each other my ex husband was so stressed he shouted at me in the car in bad traffic I needed the toilet as I had an upset stomach I was 6 months pregnant = anxiety developed I’d lose this baby or I’d need the toilet in a car or where there wasn’t one . Sadly it’s manifested badly into I can’t be where there’s no toilet facility with in 10 minutes.

This has ruined my life my childhood was one of domestic violence I mean bad bad my dad tried to kill my mum many times

I’ve had counselling CBT hypnotherapy antidepresants.

So Monday I have to have a pelvic scan as I’ve lower right tummy pain I have to have a full bladder and 2 buses to get to hospital and I’ve cancelled 3 times as travel anxiety - full bladder and ibs d do not go together and I’m scared if I don’t ah e it and it’s serious it will be too late for any help worse case.

My youngest daughters stepmum is 48 and terminal with pancreatic cancer she’s very sick now.

I also had late pregnancy loss in 2015 to sepsis and critical care stay in intensive care followed by 11 blood transfusions in 3 months all at the same hospital

Anyone know any new techniques to get me to hospital I really am anxious told no one as they will mention it all the time I’ve lied to my husband I’m going shopping

Thanks for reading x x

[Fearoffear]

Hey Runrabbit I know it all too well. I was agoraphic because of the panic from being out and getting a god awful stomach pain. So all I can come up with is don't go on the bus with a full bladder. Go early and drink once you get there it only takes 30 minutes after drinking to get the bladder full. Then make sure to empty before the trip back home on the bus. You will do fine, you are strong enough to endure all you have so far in life this little blip is nothing. Good luck and gentle hugs!!! Here if you need someone to talk to anytime.