I’ve been on a 57 week waiting list for an appointment at Community Mental Health. I got a call on Tuesday, offering me a cancellation appointment tomorrow (Friday) at 2:30pm. I’ve been on this list for about 4 months now and for some reason, I can’t face going tomorrow. I just have way too much to talk through and I don’t know where to start. Since I last saw a therapist (beginning of 2018), things have got way worse - my anxiety, my depression and problems with my family have also got worse. The last CPN I saw was so lovely and I really connected with her. But she has moved on to another job and this appointment is with someone knew. Someone who doesn’t know a thing about me. The thought of it is just overwhelming me to the point that I just don’t want to go 😞.
Does anyone have any suggestions how I should handle this appointment? I have so much baggage from my childhood which is relevant to why I feel so bad lately. The last year is enough to fill about three appointments! I’m so overwhelmed 😞