First Post

[GoatsInCoats]

I've never written on a form before, or whatever you'd call this. Guess I'll write about my troubles. I've been struggling with negative self esteem/imagine. I always put myself down or don't think I'm good enough. I feel like I've accomplished nothing over the years besides waste valuable time. I didn't always feel this way but the last year has shown me how little I've truly done. My father was ill and I care for him till he passed. When he died I had family offer to move me out of state and in with them. I left everything, job, friends, girlfriend, the place I called home. At first I enjoyed the change. A year later, now present, I feel lost. . . Alone. I live fairly isolated far from town. Last week I visited my old home state for family matters. The visit reminded me of everything I left. It was a nice vacation visiting friends, family, even my ex. But now that I'm back my life feels empty. Obviously there are more details but that's where I'm at now. Guess I just felt like writing it.

[Buggede]

Keep Ur head up bud...

[Titan4757]

Hey Goats! It's normal to feel this way sometimes. I can relate. After a year of loathing and not being myself I took it as a sign that I was put on earth to do more, accomplish more and be more than I was at that moment. It's these rock bottom moments when we push ourselves to make a change. You feel lousy for a reason! How about start making some changes? Pursue a career you're interested in, start dating again, write down your life accomplishments and how your family and close friends would describe you. Don't beat yourself up. Now is your time to make the changes the universe is pushing you towards. You got this!

[GoatsInCoats in reply to Titan4757]

Thank you that is a positive spin. I'd like to make changes. Hard to figure out what to do though.

[lillyofthevalley37]

Caring for your late father was very honerable of you

Reading your post just says to me you should move back to your home state

[Duchie060409]

I do the same things and deal with the same struggles. You are not alone. When I’m hitting real lows I try to remember there are things I have done that matter. Like helping my mom raise my younger siblings, just like it matters that you helped take care of your father. You matter and so do the things you have accomplished. Try to remember how special you are - there’s only one of you! 💞

[LilyAnnepuppy]

Welcome to the site. It’s a safe place with helpful, caring and knowledgeable people who will share their experience, strength and hope with you. Keep posting and let us know how you’re feeling.

[GoatsInCoats in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

Glad to hear it. I have a hard time talking to friends and family about everything.

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Welcome to you.

Your not alone

I’m glad you found us ! X

[sweetiepye]

Well, here you are among friends. We will support you , give you lots of free advice, give you examples of our own experiences. and accept you without too much judgement.. Is it possible for you too move back ? If it is then I would do that as life is too short to spend it in misery. If that isn't possible then you'll have to accept where you are and make the best of a bad situation. No worries. Pam

[GoatsInCoats in reply to sweetiepye]

I've thought about moving back. I'm giving myself one more year to try and make it work.

[sweetiepye in reply to GoatsInCoats]

Very admirable, I hope it works out just the way you want. Wouldn't it be nice if life came with a book of instructions ? lol. Pam