Depressed

[Lonelydude]

I'm new to this. I find myself completely alone with no friends and medicall issues arising. I have always had dysthymia but it's turning into full blown depression which brings out my ptsd issues such as abandonment. I'm not a bad looking guy but think I don't deserve any new stuff in my life. Intellectually I know this is bs but can't help myself. Hell, I have no desire to find new friends or start new projects. My work is unbearable, I'm 1 year from retirement and I'm scared of the prospect of being alone for the rest of my life. Anyone know what I'm talking about?

[Hidden]

Hello, you do sound depressed, but definitely situationally based. You have a job you hate and no real escape. The thing about fighting depression is, we have to do things we don’t feel like doing in order

to get better. Going to meet people,

going to therapy, seeing a doctor

For medication, exercising, eating well. Welcome to the forum, keep sharing and I’m sure you will find people you can support as well.

[Lonelydude in reply to Hidden]

Thank you...

[lillyofthevalley37]

Often in life the thing we dread most turns out to be ok it's usually the stuff we don't see coming that gives us most grief

I hope you don't get deeper into depression you are reaching out that's good

[Lonelydude in reply to lillyofthevalley37]

Thanks for the reply. I have been reaching out my whole life with little relief. Now its really unbearable with me getting ready to retire and 0 prospects. I could medicate myself but that's like putting a bandaid on a amputees leg. I really cant see a way out of this at this point. Pain? Physical and mental. Anyway, I'm depressed bad...

[lillyofthevalley37 in reply to Lonelydude]

What about some voluntary work when you retire you could meet other people and it will be a more casual relaxed atmosphere?

Cheer up you could have your best years yet

[Booklover0219]

I’m sorry you are feeling this way. I do understand how it feels to be lonely and depressed. I also understand that sometimes situations are just a bit unbearable and all you can do is your best to cope with it for the time being. I hope some new prospects do come your way. I feel a bit envious when people talk about retirement jobs. I would like to have a retirement job that is fun and enjoyable. Are there any new hobbies or anything you feel like looking into? I wish you the best. You deserve some happiness after a long career and certainly after putting up with the unbearable.

[Lonelydude in reply to Booklover0219]

Thanks for your reply. My "retirement" is going to be small and what I had to do to get it was awful. I should have left after the first day. My health will probably eat that money up quickly and I would estimate a few years from now I'll be in a cheap old person's home and I'm not even that old. Nothing interests me any longer and the things I used to love to do I'm not able. With no wife or children, the future looks bleaker every day. I just wish there was something I could do to show people what Not to do so they make the same mistakes as me. If there were only a way...