On and off anxiety ;)

[Kevin160]

September was really my dream month this past year , i really pushed myself to do alot , i started relearning spanish which i used to speak decently growing up , i went to a bunch of doctors which i really hate doing but for the sake of maintaining health

I signed up to do plays and play music at local theatres because its been a while since i participated in a social event

I remarked my exams which helped me calm myself waiting for the anticiption to stop affecting me

I started going out alot more and getting out of my comfort zone, talking to new people and walking around more and doing things i dont usually do as often since my anxiety started spiraling

The surprising thing is that this was one of the calmest months in my whole year , which says so much because this whole year was filled with panic attacks , fears and anxiety

Im still proud that i didnt get any panic attacks or anxiety waiting for my exam results, i did get some anxiety during the month but it was so mild

I tried things like PMR , breathing techniques and meditation , and i dont know if its a placebo , but a friends of mine offered me a healing crystal , i believe a moonstone , and it helped me sleep better and possibly calm a bit , i opened to a few of my close friends about my anxiety and i feel whatever happens atleast i did my best and im not alone , my health anxiety is way down because i feel i tried to get a full check up and i didnt find anything so regardless, i can say i faced my problems and i can be in peace

But some waves of anxiety come and go , sometimes if i eat heavy meals, sometimes if im sleepy , if i have exams , stuff like that, i know thats pretty normal but the heart palpitations bother me , im taking a couple meds for the inflamation in my airways and sinuses , inhalers and stuff, and they can cause some symptoms like palpitations and anxiety, im not sure if its caused by them, i knowmit will get better especially since im still 18 so hormones can play a role , and im finding new ways to cope all the time, PMR was a real game changer along with acceptance methods, meditation and relaxing techniques ,

Everynight before bed it calms me alot

I guess i just needed to vent

[Agora1]

Kevin you just provided a positive post to all of us who are afraid to go forward.

You tested the waters and it worked for you. I'm proud of you. Now that you've

seen the results in how stepping out of our safety zone can bring more comfort,

I hope you continue going forward each and every day. You've got this my friend. xx

[Kevin160 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you so much , i hope you know how much i appreciate all you did to me and you do for others, eventhough this website exposed me to so much fears i didnt know i could have , and i became more obsessed about all types of mental disorders over the months

But i could never trade anything for what i learned here, i would have never come this far if it wasnt for this website and people like you who supported me and gave me all these solutions and ways to cope

I finally feel nirmal, i stopped worrying alot about my bp and pulse

And i finally stopped the vicious cycle of “if i worry i will die” which causes me to worry, not just because i was told that wont happen, but because i actually found ways and realizations to help me know that there has to be a reason and a trigger , i wont worry just because. I went through alot, and i didnt let myself take a minute and take in all the overwhelming feeling because i tried so hard to resist my anxiety

I can go on all day about the things i realized over the months, where i really feel strong and willing to do things but maybe some other time 😂

I just had to thank you for helping giving me my freedom back ,

As i always say , i still have a long way to go but progress is progress

After now i cant say things never get better, to me i was at rock bottom of comstant extreme panic attacks and insomnia and hell, but having the mentality and willingness and knowing it gets better and that our thiughts always change helps, time really heals

[Agora1 in reply to Kevin160]

Kevin, this is an amazing forum I agree. The thought and care that go into each and

every response is phenomenal . However, what it all boils down to, is you and

how you choose what to do with all that support. All in time. Once we take that step

forward, we get more reassured and self confident. And with that comes Power over

our anxious thoughts. You've come a looong way my friend. I always believed that

you were ready. Happy Days, Happy Days! xx

[crowningglory19]

That is so awesome, and good to read! Thank you for sharing this good news!

All those are great to aid in healing and mental peace. Also, something many have found to help is taking magnesium which is great to calm mind body and spirit and ginseng which gets rid of sticky negative thoughts. Getting outside without sunscreen for a bit is great to boost your vit. D which is a mood enhancer. Best to you, hang in there, you are doing great! =)