Rough Day Ahead

[Browneyes921]

Hello all. I could use some positive vibes today. I suffer from generalized anxiety and panic attacks associated with driving. Today is the anniversary of my mother’s death, and I hate it. Today is the day when the wonderful memories of her her get replaced with the sadness of reliving her last days and the devastating loss that last day. Today is also the funeral of a very good friend that I grew up with and have known for over 40 years. The funeral is an hour away in our hometown, so that means travel on the highway. I won’t be driving, but I still get anxiety especially when traveling on the highway. I took my meds this morning, have my CBD at the ready, and have my iPod ready with relaxing music for the car ride. I think once I get through the first couple of hours of the day, I will be okay. Taking some deep breaths so I can get ready for the day. Peace to you all.

[LilyAnnepuppy]

Sending positive energy your way. It sounds to me that all of your emotions are of the human variety. You suffered the loss of your mother and now on the same day have to deal with more grief. Grief begets feelings of loss which begets feelings of fear which begets a heightened sensitivity to abnormal events. Not the easiest time to travel as I leave the “safety” of my home.

I have activities I do that are only done because I’ll feel better by having done them. I can say to myself after the fact, “That was a good, kind, generous thing to do for someone.” Was it fun or easy? Heck no. But needed for my self respect.

But due to my depression and anxiety disorder I have to leave myself the opening to not do things if I can’t. I can only push myself so much. If I have to cancel a plan, I allow myself permission to do so.

You’re the only one who can know you’re limitations.

I’m sorry you’re you’ve got grief to deal with today. Lynne

[Dolphin14]

🙏.

I'm sorry for your losses. It's very difficult.

May you find the strength you need to get through the day.

[Browneyes921]

Thanks for the positive vibes and well wishes. I appreciate the kind words and support. The day went well, and I managed fine on the car ride listening to calming music on earphones.