Terrible day 😕😕

[weegmack]

If anyone followed my health anxiety post yesterday, you’ll know that I was freaking out about information I had received about organic almonds that have been recalled due to traces of salmonella. Now, I don’t even eat the organic ones - I eat almonds from a bag of mixed nuts (but sold under the same supermarket label). So I decided that I was definitely going to get salmonella poisoning anyway and hardly slept. Woke up this morning (minus any symptoms of salmonella) and just couldn’t face the anxiety anymore.

This comes after some weeks of particular anxiety and stress (seems to be how life is permanently). So I was already not strong. I’m not having any symptoms. But I just couldn’t face the day. For the first time in 16 years of living with GAD, I just couldn’t get up at all. I ended up in floods of tears,

I was supposed to visit my Mum today and my husband had to phone her to say I couldn’t come. My mum doesn’t do mental health, and despite me explaining it to her in many different ways, she just doesn’t get it. She puts a lot of pressure on me. She phoned I the middle of the day to ask how I was. My daughter answered the phone and she told my mum I’d been sleeping and was just getting up. My mum asked, “so is she all better now?”. Sigh.

All I’ve done today, is sit and watch crap on tv, sleep on and off and feel so anxious. Nothing seems right. I have terrible backpain too, which I’m terrified is something serious. I have IBS and often pitch up at my GP with backpain. It’s so bad today and has been for a week. It comes and goes. But I’m convinced it’s really serious this time.

I just want to run away and be by myself. I feel like such a burden on my husband and two daughters. 😞😞

[Hidden]

If you can, please go take a walk for 30 minutes. Your brain needs a re-set. I’ve been in this situation, you have to break out of it. As much as you want to isolate and do nothing, please push your self and go on a walk. Exercise is medicine.

[weegmack in reply to Hidden]

Thank you - I’m hoping my hubby will drag me out for a walk once he’s home from work. Xx

[Hidden]

Hi Weegmack,

My mom didn't get it either. She understood the physical but not the mental health issues I struggled with. I believe she struggled with mental health issues but she didn't realize it. Unfortunately, I figured it out late in life.

I'm glad you have a loving and understanding family. It really does help.

Blessings!

[weegmack in reply to Hidden]

Thank you ❤️. I’m sorry your my didn’t get it either. I have support from my husband and my two teenaged daughters (though sometimes, I wish I didn’t burden them so). However, my mum, in-laws and most friends just don’t get it. Feel very isolated 😕

[Hidden in reply to weegmack]

I have a good support system. We are blessed to have supportive family, right?

[weegmack in reply to Hidden]

Yes we are. I think I’m just too tired to see it today 😕❤️

[Hidden in reply to weegmack]

Yes, we have those days.