I donno what the hell I had done and I really done this?

[wanttoliveagain]

I'm not able to die and not able to live, when I'm addicted to drinks everyone has trusted me and helped me when I realized n set things back to normal everything turned upside down. I screwed up the lives of my family and friends who trusted me.. Just want to live until I repay them back.. I am not able to focus on what I was good at because of the things that I have done. It became a damn deadlock.. Can't live or die.. What was wrong with me? Please suggest me how to handle this??

[NWGal]

I feel like you really want to get help. Besides coming here, I'd suggest seeking the help of a mental health therapist to work this through. What do you think? Good karma coming your way!

[wanttoliveagain in reply to NWGal]

First of all, I'm really sorry for my delay.. Let's hope for the best and I'll get one more chance to set everything like before..

[NeuronerdDoaty]

You can’t do anything until you get healthy. I agree that some therapy would be good so you can get a good plan of action set up. One of my therapists told me I needed therapists because I get my life messed up by myself, how do I expect to fix it by myself.

Best of luck to you

Doaty

[wanttoliveagain in reply to NeuronerdDoaty]

I'm sorry, took a lot of time to reply, thanks for your support, m trying to find someone for this. Im really feeling hopeless, but I'll try to fight as far as I can..

[SuZQ154]

Your posting indicates you want to get help. That is wonderful. We can all be forgiven if we turn away from old patterns. It takes time, patience, and faith. Have you considered going to church? God is a forgiving God and He tells us we all can be forgiven. Please keep posting. There is HOPE!

[wanttoliveagain in reply to SuZQ154]

Yes, I have been visiting all holy places for forgiveness and for some fresh air to breath. It's been a month or so.. All I want is to start my life again like before. I was pretty good at my job n helping others, but people I helped are busy with their lives and people who helped me don't trust me anymore and I can't quit until I repay them.. See I'm messing up this conversant as well..

[NeuronerdDoaty in reply to wanttoliveagain]

You didn’t ruin anything. When we get all these chemicals swirling around in our brain it’s hard.

[wanttoliveagain]

Im really sorry for ruining your time n mood, have a great day ahead, will try to find a way.. I don't mean to hurt anyone, just wanted to figure out a way to begin new life..

[SuZQ154 in reply to wanttoliveagain]

Your desire to find a new way is wonderful! Please keep trying! You are loved and valuable, and there is HOPE! Please keep posting. Have faith, hope, and love. My prayers are with you this morning.

[wanttoliveagain]

Thanks a lot for your support, hope your prayers gives me more support.