Me and a friend of mine, (I will call him Bob) became an item back in 2016. I knew he had kids. One 9, the other 5. I had no problem with it and even supported him through his lengthy Divorce and Custody battles. I gave them each a bedroom at my house right away. If him and his kids were going to be living in my house, they needed their own space. He was granted 50/50 custody of his children a little over a year ago. I told him I'd be willing to help out him and their mother when necessary, beings we were moving away from both sets of their grandparents. I accepted and loved that I would have these children in my life. I knew me and the kids' new stepdad would have to be involved to some extent. They come with us for a week and then their mother's for a week and so on, alternating. I have a daughter, who is 24. She's married and has her own children, my grand kids. Love them dearly. My point is that I had no more dependents of my own left at home when Bob and I got together. We are now married, moved to another city to be closer to the kids' mom so that the kids don't have to commute any longer, safer for them. Which, in my belated opinion, should mean that because mom and dad live close enough to each other to play nice and tend to their children, leaning on me and step dad should happen only when necessary. All is good for the most part. I love my husband greatly and have MANY reasons to do so and stay . He is warm and compassionate. He loves me like nobody's business. Treats me better than any man has ever treated me. Works hard. Never leaves me hanging.
I have to wonder sometimes though, what really is the definition of being helpful and backing them up? What really is the appropriate duties for step parents? I've always and still do bring the kids to school (which is near both our homes, no commuting necessary). Sometimes pick them up as well. Since we've moved, I've been feeling a lot more pressure over tending to the kids. Might be because we don't have grandparents helping anymore. I don't know if maybe its all the anxiety and depression causing me to feel taken advantage of. This morning my husband had to be at work a little later than normal. I had expected he would bring the kids to camp beings he had more time than normal AND he doesn't get to do it often. Nope, I was wrong. I was still responsible for bringing them even though he could have. Their own mother could bite the bullet and bring them herself, beings she's the one who moved away in the first place. Especially beings she chose this camp that they're attending. A camp that requires the kids to commute, on a very dangerous stretch of highway. AGAIN. And he never bucked her or asked for a discussion or anything before making a decision about camp, nor did they run anything by me, the backup. She spoke it and he allowed it. Bringing them every morning takes away from my quiet time. I'm a smoker, that means no cigarettes until I get to work. Can't smoke in the car with them and I wouldn't. Can't listen to my morning show because it's inappropriate for children. I can deal with it normally but it really bothered me that he didn't bring them when he could have this morning. Does this make me a bad step parent? I hear people say that you have to treat them as your own. I would do anything for those kids including protect them with my life, however, they are not my kids. I hear people also say that I shouldn't try to be a parent to them but just be an adult friend that they can count on. I don't know what's right or wrong, I just know that it's causing me some emotional issues and definitely putting something in between my husband and I. Am I crazy? I seemed to be happy to help but now I just feel aggravated by it. Because again, like so many times in my past, no one considered the effect her decision would make on me. Her decision of where they were going to summer camp and the fact that my husband didn't request that we keep it close to school and home just really set me off. Any perspective or opinion would be great. Thanks!