Bittersweet days

[Kevin160]

I paid alot to remark some of my exams , i was advised it could work but its risky because i would waste money if it doesnt , today i got the results , they didnt work , i was bummed but i was BEYOND EXTREMELY PROUD that i didnt panic these couple weeks, i slept well and i was so surprised by myself , it wasnt as tense as results day but i was still impressed i was able to calm myself down

I used PMR (mucle contractions technique ) to calm myself its really great

I used all the other techniques that i got when i found out i had anticipatory anxiety disorder , because i always had panic attacks about future events specifically , and i kept using positive self talk and it worked , i had a doctors revision, its all good thankfully , , blood tests and x ray are great , i was told my breathing problems werent anxiety based , or atleast not entirely, i had allergies and alot of inflamation in my lungs and sinuses, i felt great to know i actually faced alot of my fears this week from my health anxiety to my anticiation anxiety , im not saying its over , but i made progress and im proud , even when times were low , and i hit rock bottom thinking i will never ever bounce back and i will die from all this i still made it

Things that helped me other than what i mentioned were the simple realization that out mentalities change so quickly , for example right now many things dont scare me like before, i dont have to try to calm myself when i deal with certain stuff, like getting out of the house or driving , so realizing that my mentality wont stay the same forever and it will change relatively quickly was a huge game changer, and helped me realize that im really capable of change and that i will be fine because my anxiety wont last on a specific thing and i can work through it like i did this past year , its hard to explain but sometimes u just get sudden surges of fearlessness and you feel unstoppable , so knowing i get that and im capable of being ok is the key

Acceptance method and stuff like that were also great for me , breathing techniques and meditation and podcasts were helpful , peoples support is great here ❤️❤️

[Ceaser_Leone]

your post has given me hope everything will truly be alright

[Kevin160 in reply to Ceaser_Leone]

Yes it will , you just have to realize that regardless what happens , mentalities change and what scares you know wont scare you in the future , in addition to working on figuring out what works for you anxiety or depression etc..

im wishing you the best of luck

[Joanne1972]

Well that's a definite A+ for your anxiety control and thanks for sharing what helped you

Hope you are very proud of your achievements.

Jo

[Kevin160 in reply to Joanne1972]

Thankfully i am , because months ago i couldnt sit alone without getting a panic attack because i just got sudden extreme health anxiety and just spiraled out of control in mere days to a point where i literally hit rock bottom , i would get panic attacks and anxiety attacks that would last weeks and i just would never plan ahead For the future thinking the severe anxiety will never go and i will die from it, and from the beginning of the year and i have been trying to get back to where i want to be

I have been putting myself in situations that would usually scare me in order to get over my fears , such as public speaking , heights , social events , doctors appointments , which some of them are new phobias that i developed when i started getting panic attacks and my health anxiety worsened making me fear doing anything