Me in a nutshell

[JulyMoon87]

I am a 32yo mom. I have developed treatment resistance to medication for bipolar. I have severe anxiety. I'm completely hopeless in what my future holds. I can't do anything and I'm too embarrassed to explain how I am to anyone. So I've isolated myself. I feel like I am permanently stuck in the worse form of myself. I keep wondering if I should try to come to terms with being disabled and get disability. And if I do...how do you explain to someone that you're mentally disabled? Will I ever date again? I wish I had someone by my side so much.

[grovergirl2]

So sorry things are so tough right now. Anxiety can be a such a beast! About your questions...is there anyone who knows your diagnosis or that would be supportive if you let them know? Hang in there! Be gentle with yourself.

[car103]

First of all - you are not alone. There are many people who don't tolerate pharmaceuticals. Do some research on your anxiety. Acupuncture, Myofascial Release, Somatic Experiencing, EMDR, CBD, Amino Acids, Homeopathy, Bach Flower Essence, Yoga, Meditation, Tuning Forks, Singing Bowls - there is lots of stuff out there.

About the "Disability" label. The right person gets it if you go that route.

Think more about what is going to help you or be good for you. That's what counts in the end. People say and think what they do. I wouldn't stress on it.

Also, being on disability can be for a short term. It can be a temporary crutch to help you re-stabilize.

Give yourself credit for small steps. You wrote here. That is one step out of isolation.

[Hidden]

I feel compassion for you. Though I'm not bipolar, I can relate in some way to the anxiety you are feeling. At times it has been debilitating for me and I only felt comfortable by being withdraw and alone. A lot of times I've felt like what's the point of life when most days seem like such a struggle to make it through an average day.

Sorry this isn't specific advice but you need to just keep looking for help. As long as you're making an effort to address the issue you want to fix it's better than doing nothing. There isn't a clear path to curing mental health problems but if you're not making the effort to improve it then it's easy for it to worsen and cause serious damage before you know it. You can do it. Stay strong for your child too.

[Sabio77]

thank you julymoon87 for sharing your story here. nice to meet you. good news, you are not ever alone, theres hope... light at the end of the tunnel, and you are worth every bit of effort you put into helping yourself. especialy for your child/children. Anxiety is a tuff emotion to experience. I go thru it too. there are many ways to naturally cope with anxiety. Believe in yourself. here for you. hugs

[cupcake3000]

I think you should apply for disability. I have A.D.D, anxiety and depression. I’m on disability now. Maybe if you were on disability you would be able to take time to work on yourself. It’s still taken me over six years to finally start to see some progress. I’m in a better frame of mind which definitely helps 😊. Good luck with your adventures. Hope everything works out for you.